Suicide is never on mind , just that I felt I m better off dead
sometimes preferably for a good cause... I have few frds and my
peers ard my age are doing much better than me career wise and
financiallly, some are getting married soon. I kinda felt that I
have lost or fail in the game of life and I dun see the purpose of
my existance.
Right now I waiting for the world to end next year, if it
doesn't I'll be really disappointed.
y? coz I have to complain to my creator/maker/god or watever u
call 
I felt the same when I was younger... then came army. Braced my
physique up, forced to open up. Then my gf turned lesian on me.
Soon another chio bu replace her... (spare you my sad love
stories)... one thing lead to another. I was divorved once, felt
like a fcuking failure. Now it turned out that the divorce is a
good thing. I'm happily remarried. And a father of 4 and a
half.
Life is not as bad as it looked then. Once the naivette got
chased off by life lessons, life can be... as
good as it gets. What you want may not be what you have. But what
you have is confirmed plus chop what you want. Else why the fcuk
are you holding on to it? :)
