To be married and ''think'' of another man is ok, but remember
that if u cross the
line, then u are being unfair to your spouse and
disrespecting yourself.
Unless, of course, u are holding on to a ''dead'' marriage, but
want the security and yet crying out for some space to be.
Loneliness is a by=product of unloving oneself, unaccepting of
what one is, what one does, hence the need for ''things'' or
''another'' to fulfil one. Of course, it may happen but one has to
pay the price and most unconsciously do and hence the feeling of
being trapped and stultified. Also, once that ''reason'' or
''need'' is fulfilled - whatever one was seeking ends, it dies.
Being self-honest is
essential and being human is to err but to drag everything and
cause misery to oneself and others close to u is unwise
PS - ''Think'' in quotes is cos only by being self-honest will u ever
be able to reconcile to and hopefully transcend this and yet be.
Beware cos what the mind thinks and the heart feels are two
different ...
Even if I want to cross the line, I also cannot.
He cut me off remember? I feel so sad and heartbroken.
I don't understand why he cut me off just because he thinks I'm
"engaged", when he had no issues with our illicit and unusual
relationship when I was attached to my boyfriends.
Should I try to track him down?