how do you know if you are crazy ?
recently i have been uttering words which i thought are ok,
but i find people siam or bo-chap me after hearing them. when
i was saying those words, i thought it was "hip" or nothing
wrong. but i don't get response from people.
i am having stress for a while now. suffered a loss
recently. then because of the economic crisis, i have to work
at jobs which are either lower-level or very different from what i
used to do. i find that i have lost myself. i don't
know who i am anymore.
even though i laugh and appear ok, actually i feel very
depressed and lonely inside. faced repeated rejections
(jobs). my parents scold me stupid why till now i still can't
get a proper job which is of my level. i feel guilty
when i see them getting old by the day, and i can't help them
retire well by providing for them financially. i become
"fearless" because my heart is now dead. hence i utter words
and behave in such a way which in normal circumstances i wld think
twice in saying or doing. i tell myself my life is going to
end soon anyway because that's what i hope for. i can't find
meaning to go on living.
how do i go on from here ?
I survived two global recessions.
First was 1986 when my parents lost their jobs and I had to go
do illegal part time club as a child waiter.
Another was 1998 when I had to take up downgraded jobs.
You'll live. As long as you are not handicap and you have two
hands and legs and a brain you can survive.
Your Life Got No Meaning? Hah, I went thru a tumultous divorce.
I was married for only mere 2.5 years when my wife left me for
another idiot guy overseas.
Grow up.
Don't be a sissy. You're too man for that.