I dunno if I can use the word hate, but I cannot stand the sight
and sound of my mom. she is in her early 70s, stubborn, talks loud
and is not a hygienic person. she embarrased me when I was young
and she could not keep secrets. I have learned my lesson, not to
tell her anything, less my relatives and her friends know about
it.
when she cooks, the kitchen is a mess after that. you can see
rice, meat and dunno what shit on the floor. the sink is also
likewise, with rice, vege or some meat lying around.
I dun like to talk to her, cos she talked loudly (as if
quarrelling), nag and nag at dunno what shit. she go complain to
relatives that I am not telling her anything and my relatives came
to ask me, how come your mom does not know what you are doing. why
should I, after what I was embarrased as a child. she once said, I
want to know what you are thinking and I was like wtf. what
arrogance and thinking was that. you do not tell me anything about
yourself, except for the old grandmother stories.
I have no feelings for her no more cos I have had it, from teens
to adulthood. when she come home, I go back to my bedroom and turn
on the tv volume loud. why I buy a tv in my room so that I dun have
to see her in the living room anymore.
