I dunno if I can use the word hate, but I cannot stand the sight
and sound of my mom. she is in her early 70s, stubborn, talks loud
and is not a hygienic person. she embarrased me when I was young
and she could not keep secrets. I have learned my lesson, not to
tell her anything, less my relatives and her friends know about
it.
when she cooks, the kitchen is a mess after that. you can see
rice, meat and dunno what shit on the floor. the sink is also
likewise, with rice, vege or some meat lying around.
I dun like to talk to her, cos she talked loudly (as if
quarrelling), nag and nag at dunno what shit. she go complain to
relatives that I am not telling her anything and my relatives came
to ask me, how come your mom does not know what you are doing. why
should I, after what I was embarrased as a child. she once said, I
want to know what you are thinking and I was like wtf. what
arrogance and thinking was that. you do not tell me anything about
yourself, except for the old grandmother stories.
I have no feelings for her no more cos I have had it, from teens
to adulthood. when she come home, I go back to my bedroom and turn
on the tv volume loud. why I buy a tv in my room so that I dun have
to see her in the living room anymore.
Please be more tolerance towards your own parents. Do not forget
that you do not choose your parent, so never deny their existence
for as long as you are alive.
Every single cells in your body comes from your parents no
matter how much differences you may have inside your mind.
Be grateful that you are still blessed with parents compared to
many unfortunate children around the world who didn't even have the
opportunity to know and be with their parents. And many more out
there who realised they are unable to buy more time for their
own parents no matter how much money they have in this world.
What you needed to learn is to open up your heart and accept
your parents for who they are. You can have different
personalities, but you cannot deny your own parents no matter what
happens.
How would your future spouse and family, relatives and friends,
employers and children, think about you if you can even deny your
own parents?
Just because you happens to have friends who feels or made you
feels that it is right for you to judge and condemns your parents
now that you're smarter and more successful than them,
doesn't change your heartless actions from wrong into
right.
Untidy-ness and nagging are just habits derived from lifestyles.
It is undeniable that your parents would still love you and accept
you for who you are, despite the fact that you have heartlessly
denied them.
Keeping grudges and calculative with your parents is really
just a childish behaviour, and you should grow up and become a
better person than who you are now ... before it is too late and
your behaviour becomes irreversible.
I believe you can become alot better person with excellent
behaviour than who you are now.
Don't you wished to look back at your past in your future and
laughed about how silly you were in your past?
You can do it if you would focus and believe in your own
goodness, because I believe they would erase and decontaminate your
past and you would grow to become a better and happier person which
your parents would be proud of you for as long as you lived.
Good Luck and Believe in your own goodness. 