what if, one day, after six years of work that you gave in for a
girl, you then found out she has been going out with another guy.
and she tells you that she "totally wasnt paying attention to
details". worse still, after 2 times of asking if she wanted to go
to the movies, she replies that she has been wanting to ask why you
wouldnt want to watch movie with other people.
but both of us were like, real good friends in the past. and
shes like the only person who can even relate to me. and i really
have no idea if she is lying about anything. her favourite moves
are to feign ignorance and act dumb....2 years ago, i confessed to
her to which she said she wouldnt like to start a r/s then, maybe
in a few years time. and i guess i was dumb enough to take the
gamble to wait another 2 years. when it was obviously a rejection.
and after that, our friendship somehow started to break down,
something which is obviously against my wishes. but being in
different schools...and she sees the other guy everyday...i guess i
put myself at my own disadvantage already since long ago.
today shes like indifferent towards me....i feel like a
forgotten friend, one whose existence is of a triviality. there was
an outing quite recently...and...i was the only "close friend" not
invited by her. and when i jokingly asks why. she says "aiya.
randomly invite 1 mah". to me, yeah, right. this kind of stuff isnt
the first time it happened. sometimes i think there must be a
reason why...but i dont know...
how it ended up like this. i have no idea why. but since
yesterday night...after knowing that she went out with some other
guy...i havent really slept. and even her tv seems more important
than me....yesterday as we talked....towards the end when i really
couldnt stand it anymore, i told her sth like "anyway since you're
watching tv, dont need to bother about me..you can keep watching
your tv", to which she replied, "i go watch tv le hor, good
night!". so much so for at least being a good friend of mine.
i think im just mumbling rubbish to you all here, i apologize
for that. i just need a platform for me to vent my
frustration....there are really too many things that happened. im
really confused and...dont know what to do. cry out loud? but im
already numb to this feeling long ago....because i expected this
day to come. but i didnt expect to simply break down just like
that...
when you find somebody who really seems perfect for you but you
just suddenly have to let go....as a guy i think really i suck and
im a complete failure. zzz.
common tests, prelims and a lvls are coming soon. i tell myself
i need to concentrate to study well. but what good is there to
always do well in tests, lead a high flying life, only to void of a
simple thing called companionship.
if only it was so easy to let go. this sucks.
This is life, many things do not go the way you wanted them
to.
From what you have said about her, I can safely assume that she
is those who like to try to avoid/ignore things which she does not
want to face or dislike. The reason why she is avoiding you now or
pretending to forget to invite you is because she does not want to
directly settle things with you face-to-face.
Back then, she does not like you, but also does not want to hurt
you by directly rejecting you, hence she tell you "see first". She
feels awkward talking to you now, hence she is trying to avoid you
by often leaving you out of her social activites and even
pretending that you are not there at times.
It is never easy to let go of someone whom you truly loves, but
is time for you to move on, since she already got a bf. Instead of
paying attention on her, you should focus on your "A"s, otherwise
you might do badly for it.
Since she is already avoiding you, you should do the same too.
You go on with your life and she goes on with hers. The moment you
confessed to her, your friendship has already broken down. Do not
attempt to directly talk things out with her, unless you want to
make the situation even worse. It is better to be two strangers
than to be two enemies.
It will not be possible to totally forget about her, so please
do not try to get any girl as a gf just to make yourself forget
about her. Do not let your mental health deteoriate too by closing
yourself up to everyone or abusing your physical body. Recently
there seems to be quite a number of forummers who keep telling us
how they try to kill themselves, and I certainly hope you will not
join their group.
If you feel like shouting it out, go ahead. Sometimes, we need a
good shout to clear our clouded mind. But that is about as far as
you should go, do not try to physically injure yourself, which was
what quite a number of people whom I know did. You are free to spam
your unhappiness here, and share your woes with us.
