'Where is your heart?'
This is the sum of your discontent and confusion. Whenever one
is confused or lost, there is only one thing to do -
PRIORISTISE.
Determine what is more important to you right now - gf or exam.
Once decided, come hell or high water, let it not affect you or
suffer pangs of regret.
Shut off your mind, close down, shutter the doors and lock down
the gates in your brain to other distractions. Become one
track mind and do what is important.There are times one cannot have
the best of both worlds, for we are only mortals.
As for the relationship issue, should you choose her instead of
exams, it would be noble of you, for she is a human life and more
precious than any exams which can always re-sit again. Money we can
make anytime, but once a life is lost, it is gone forever.
It is most unfortunate that you did not have a serious and
mature talk with her when you embark on your exams, and thus, in
presumptions that she will understand, you had neglected her. In
her loneliness, she succumbed to the charms of other men.
Loneliness is a painful experience, is real and not many people
can handle it. More so when one is in a serious relationship.
Thus, can you blame and fault her? We are all only human
and flawed, but important is that we know where our mistake lay,
confess and do not do it again. But still, it is up to you to
forgive her in your presumption that you are the defaulted
party.
I would only remind you that love is more than skin deep. What
you are going thru now is only hurt, and if your love for her is
strong, believe me, in time within months, you will not mind so
long as she promises never to do such a thing again. You may
regret when you let her go now. Think again.
Her heart is your aim, not her private part, but if it is
private part you seek, go buy a sex toy please. She is human, a
precious life, a warm companion to share the lonely journey of life
together.
If you still want the best of both world, then you will have to
assure her, or get a third party she and you trusts to help
her tide over her pain of being cheated while you focus on your
exams. On one hand, it will stop her from thinking up crazy
destructive schemes and the other, you will have peace of mind
to focus on your priority till your exams are over.
Good luck, and may you achieve peace and happiness whichever
priority you choose. You can, and are, only responsible for your
life which you alone lives, no one else can.