I met a thai girl whom i got to know from a escort website. I
booked her for 2 hours for sex. But instead of doing anything, we
actually just chat, massage each other's back and joke around for
the whole 2 hours. After that, we went for makan and i sent her
back to her work place at orchard towers. Then she sms me telling
me that i am a real gentlemen and feels good been with me and hope
we can be good friends.
The next day, i realised i can't stop thinking of her. I called
and chat with her ever since then. I even had foolish ideas of
finding her a decent job in singapore or some way to stop her from
working there. ( Of cos thats impossible i know ). And worst of all
i was her only customer for that whole week. As business is pretty
bad at orchard towers and she doesn't do business with those ang
mohs. i asked i could go down and visit her, but she refused saying
she only wants to see me outside and not in this kind of place.
Then i decided to invite her to my house for dinner. She
responded very happily and even went to shop for some decent
clothes so she can wear it to when she meets my family.
On that fateful friday the 13th, i brought her to my place,
intro her to my mum and had dinner. Then we went to my room and
chat , surf net. She was really very happy and we even discussed
about the next day program. Then my mum asked " Is she staying
overnight?" I told her maybe. Her face turned really black and said
"NO"
I was somewhat shocked and i suddenly felt everything is going
to go wrong. I begged my mum but she refused. I really dont know
wat to do.. cause i actually told the thai girl she could stay
over, and my parents will be ok with it ( I brought ex gf to my
place before to makan and overnight but my mum never make noise ).
I went back to my room, and asked her if she wanted to go clubbing.
She looked at me and asked whats wrong. I just told her the truth
that my parents dont like you to overnight here. After that the
thai girl said she's ok with it and that i can tell her the truth.
Then she continued serving net and suddenly broke into tears.
I was SHOCKED. She cried. I asked her whats wrong she refused to
tell me. Then my mum sms from the living room telling me to ask her
to leave. i really didnt know what to do, i felt like as though my
life is over. Then i asked her to dry up her face and we leave the
house now.
I brought her to hotel 81 and when we entered the room, she was
still crying. After she settled her crying, and a long persuading,
she finally told me. She told me she put a lot of hope in seeing my
family and she even spent money to buy decent dressing for me. She
even took a day off from work just for this day.
I apologised and kissed and hug her. She then said, hooker and
customer shouldnt have fall in love. I just told her that it's my
decision to love her. We chatted about each other's problem, about
my strict family and her finanical budern. She has to drink herself
drunk every night so she can sleep otherwise she cant sleep. Its
really sad. i really wished i can do something for her, and i
thought i could make her life happier on friday but it turned out
to be like this.
I send her home and gave her 100 bucks. I went home without
shedding a single tear throughout everything. The moment i lied
down on my bed, i simple broke down. I just couldnt stop crying. In
my heart i kept on cursing myself.Cursing myself why am i born in
such a strict family and when i didn't study well enough to have a
higher paying job. Then i thought of putting a stop to our
relationship. I called her told her that today will be the last
time we see each other again. She kept quiet for a minuite, and
told me she really dont wan me to leave her etc etc etc.
In the end i couldn't bear it, and i told her i will call her
again. I really am at loss. i really dont know what to do. To be
frank, i broke down several times typing till here. I hate my
parents and i hate myself. I really wished i can do something to
let her have a better life.
Falling head over heels with a prostitute are
occasional topics that would pop its presence into Aunt Agony every
other moment. In my 8 years here, I remembered telling those guys,
having exact same scenario as yourself (you can consider them as
your predecessor), to report with a reply/topic/post if they are
successful in their relationship with these ladies. You know the
happily ever-after kind?
None did. 
***
Before we start claiming human rights issues
about the fact that prostitute are also human beings requiring
basic socio-emotional needs - this is in fact a red herring to the
real fundamental issues in love, which are classic technique
naturally 'used' by our individual cosmic lessons, which could
conveniently put us in intensive karmic relationship without
resistance. The informal fallacy that prostitute also deserve a
partner, in this case, is but a smoke screen to conceal the root of
issues - the deficit in learning about love.
Everything occurs within a one week time frame and such pace of
advancement is likely to an Uranus-influence relationship. Your
failure in previously relationship seemed to share a common factors
that (1) you based your decision entirely on affect and (2) you
don't exactly know your partners very well when you end up in a
relationship with them.
First law of CloUdism states "it is we who chooses our partner,
not the other way round.' As much allocation of blame you have
attributed to your previous girlfriends, wouldn't you agree that
having nine unsuccessful relationship are blatant signals that the
root of problem are probably strong hint of suggestion that you are
likely the main reason for it?
You mentioned that such disappointment has prompted you to dial
a call girl; hence your real agenda is that you wanted a
girlfriend, so what you did was to attempt to switch from a paid
sexual service to 'convert' them into 'legitimate' relationship.
You have used monetary payment to get pass your first door (the
approach) because in any given chase, for the masculine role always
suffer from approach anxiety (fear of rejection). Your failure in
several preceding relationships has created what I termed as love
fatigue and in response, people always hasten the process to get to
where they last stopped in love.
This creates several structural problems in love, often only
expressed itself in later stages.
The condition of this fact doesn't alter, even if you get to
know her better before committing anything.
Also, I believe there are certain amount of Transference
(shifting your emotions towards this woman, bounded by paid
services to response in a certain manner, simultaneously illicit
your desire to forge deeper companionship). She reciprocated in a
manner (both physical and personality) close to your ideals, but I
must remind you that these are merely perception exuded on her
part, which might not be consistent with her actual thoughts and
feelings.
Man just loved playing the knight in shining armour; don't over
identify yourself with the role of a rescuer. Albeit it feels good
on the ego, but you subject yourself to blind compliance. Blaming
yourself for her helplessness is step one.
P.S: You are pretty much fixed in what you plan to do and like
all others before you, I shall say the same: do let us know if this
has evolve into a successful outcome. I should still be around.
Cheers
