pls just let me rant and save the nasty comments
i really hope it's just a bad day. but something tells me that,
that's just not all. i realize at times, everything seems to go
wrong. everything literally. i was late for work. even cabbing all
the way there and wasting sooo much money, i was still late. i
faced semishit at work. my bf and i bickered quite badly over some
stuff while at work, and the stuff i heard him say really made me
so deflated beyond hope, like i'll never be good enough. and
recently i just pissed my mom off. when i came home, all it took
was a few glares from her, just that few glares. and everything
just falls apart. a huge huge flop.i was staring at my dinner and i
felt so much like crying out loud. i never seem to get anything
right. the people i care about most are crazy mad at me and they're
ignoring me. and really i feel so alone now. like never before.
after a whole day's of hustle and bustle and drama, at the end of
the day, i'm still alone.
To cheer yourself is easy, you can go watch a comedy movie, or do
some shopping and buy something for yourself until you're happy, or
turn on the air-con in your room and hug all your pets to
sleep.
Or...maybe you just needed a break from your current routine
lifestyle.
Change may be what you needed the most at this time. Whenever
your life is going through some miserable stage over a LONG period
of time, it is a warning sign to you that it is time for you to
make some changes to your current routine lifestyle.
Of course changes doesn't necessary means quitting your job and
moving on in search for another job, that would be running
away....unless you're a runner in life, you are not going to be
able to RUN FOREVER in your life.
Changes should be made within YOURSELF and not anything that is
OUT of YOURSELF. Reasons is because ONLY you can make the changes
within yourself and you can't really make any
permanent changes outside of yourself.
Changes within yourself could range from a variety starting from
your dressing and appearances, attitude towards yourself and
others, personality or personalities, social circles and
moral values, hobbies and life skills, and of course most
importantly believing in a RELIGION. If you are a
free-thinker, I would urge you to step into a Christian Church or
accept the invitation to visit a Christian Church to attend their
service.
You may find that your day is already at the most miserable
at the moment as compared to your yesterdays. But if you were to
think forward a bit, your day could have turned out a lot
worse and more miserable than what you had went through.
And every possible setbacks or aggression that you have faced is
an opportunity for you to grow stronger in character and become a
better person than Fantagf, jojobeach, Gedanken. I'm had
to quote them because they are such excellent examples of chaotic
and imperfect people.
Time will help you to overcome all the setbacks and aggression
that you are facing right now. All you need is to focus on what you
would like to change within yourself.
And when you find that one day you no longer feel affected by
any setbacks or aggression in your life, then you will find how
happy, simple and easy it is to find happiness in your
life.
You won't be alone anymore when you have found GOD in your life.
Because GOD will always be with you, watching over you, protecting
you, and loving you. 
