I really..feel confused…recently he typed in my blog’s
chatbox..
I said in one of my blog posts that he was just using me as a
stand in after just breaking with his ex gf..
Gonna copy and paste it then…
him: sad to hear your thinking abt mi is like tht…
sky: isn’t it? then why arent you replying my smses?
sky: i don’t know lah, but you dun reply just gives me that
impression.
sky: then…junwei…just let me go? i hurt because you dont reply
my sms-es, when was the times when we could just talk
** like nobody’s business? gone i guess
sky: you promised
sky: you promised that you’d take me to where the sunrise was
beautiful
sky: you said
sky: every promise is made by the heart
sky: you showed me
sky: but now? where is that friendship?
sky: you turned our hands upside down and showed me!
sky: i don’t know…i will return your jacket and your dvd to ur
doorstep on 1st nov.
him: I dunno u la.. wat u demand always have to be in your way..
I not into it de.. FRenz are like tht??? i seriously dunno.. U gt
seriously think of hw i feel when u demand things from mi??
him: Is this call frenz??
him: u wan return mi my stuff u can return mi straight dun need
put outside my house which i hate ppl to do.. we find a time u pass
it to mi..
him: ANyway u should go think wat u demand and in the end u
shoot it b to mi say y i go accept the request? u wan noe y?? becoz
i treat as my gd frenz..
him: Mayb i am too naive perhaps! YOur sort of friendship isnt
my kind of friendship ba
sky: i was thinking u choose i give it to u at ur doorstep or u
dowan c me den i put it at ur doorstep…and what u mean u go accept
the request? what request?
sky: and what things did i demand from you? can tell me?
sky: a lot of the things you said i don’t understand? no link
de? please tell me what happened..
sky: erm, friendster request or the ‘request’...the one you told
me not to say?
sky: and demand..you go running with me? im sorry if you feel
its demanding…but i thought like that can spend more time with you
then i thought you said you needed to train too…
sky: if you don’t wanna say…then it’s alright. I guess we aren’t
as close
I seriously don’t know what he was talking about, guys…can
anyone tell me perhaps what he is thinking? It just hurts to see
him say that, that it is not his kind of friendship..but I didn’t
say..out..I say I hurt because, I treat my friends better than
myself. I want them to smile, I want them to know that they can
rely on me if they need a rubbish bin to vomit into.
But..after listening to him…and this is what I get..I know, I’m not
as talkative when I’m out with people, with him. But I listen..I’m
not a good talker
I have long made my choice.
And I really know it is my fault giving him the wrong
message.
But I can see that he still has feelings for his ex as he told me
some things..
So it lead me to believe that he only treats me as a friend and so
I thought he didn’t think wrong. He all along right from day1 knows
that I have a boyfriend, I tell him a lot about my boyfriend
too.
When my boyfriend finally came to sg last saturday, I told him
in person sorry about everything and we talked about it and I
wanted to know and understand how he felt when he knew.
Our relationship is stronger now. Junwei, I now really miss him
and talking to him. And laughing. And he is the second guy who has
seen me at my worst. LOL.
But i will let go if what he said in my chatbox is what he
meant.
I thought of just escaping that time, yes. Because he wasn’t
replying to my smses and I wanted to understand the problem and
sort it out and him not replying me just ties that knot in my heart
even tighter.
