It's been nearly a year since we broke off. But i am still
struck here on the same point where he left me.
He gave me all sorts of reason saying that he wants a breakup
pushing all the blame to me. 2days later when i went to look for
him again to try and save our relationship, i saw a lovebite on his
neck. That kind of pain in my heart was undescrible. He already has
a new gf.
The reason we quarrel and ended breaking up was because i found
out that he have been chatting with this gal. I didnt expect things
to turn out like that. Moments before we quarrel he was still
lovingly holding my hand.
Being with him for 4 and a half year. We have even thought of
starting our own family. We have even went to apply for a flat
together. Little did i expect him to have a change of heart. Just
moments after he break off with me. Maybe 4 years plus wasn't long
but we have gone through so much ups and downs together, how would
a guy say forget, let go and leave just like that?
He's happily with the gal now but here i am couldnt move on. I
thought i had already let go. Trying not to think but he kept
calling me and ask me out. He doesnt have any intention in patching
back. He just need someone's accompany when his gf is working. His
calling and all, triggered the love i had for him that i had all
along tried to hide and not to think, i kept telling everyone that
i am oki and i have already forgotten him. In fact, i am just lying
to myself.
I cried everytime i think of him, everytime i thought of all our
memories, all the promise that he has once made, everytime when i
passby the places we have went to before. There is so much so much
memories everywhere.
I wanted to move on and forget about him but i just couldnt stop
thinking. I donno if i am still waiting for him to come back. I am
so confused myself. What a useless gal.
watever had happened tink back also no use... now u should face
facts tat hesmoved on... if u still had feeling after breakup then
u shouldnt meetup wif him(at least not so soon)... last 4yrs
ur time spent all wif him? wheres ur frens? yes u r hurting now but
tis time to gather some frens to help u move on n time to cut ur
ties wif him... no point acting strong infront of frens... let them
help u...