Damn you, you made me cry...
just when i thought i was moving on... yes, i`m in the same
shoes as what u were 15 years ago.. i knew i was going to regret
not doing anything... however i was just convinced that i had to
let her go..
i too had felt that vacumn that u felt, a special place in the
heart no one could ever replace.. i too felt hopeless and
helpless.. but there seemed to be nothing i can do now.. i don even
dare to love anymore.
if u think no one understands you, i know... it was always easy
for the others to say move on, but the heart doesnt really walk in
the same direction as the mind.. yes, u knew what should be
done,and u will do it, but it's just impossible to change
the way you feel for her...
from a different perspective, i recently unwiliingly ended
my r/s.. i always felt that something could be done to prevent this
regret i`ll be expecting many years down the road, but many are the
advices that asked me to forget about getting the r/s back.. i
tried everything possible within my means, but it just yield no
possible results, in fact her love was deeply covered by her hatred
now.. the more i do, the more she hates.. i talked to someone
recently, he gave me an advice..
`if she comes back to you, will she be happy?`
this was the thought that didnt went throu my mind at anytime, i
just wondered what life would be if i still had her with me right
now.. it would had been so wonderful, but little actions leads to
misunderstanding beyond recovery for me now.. for me i would
picture that yes, she`ll had been very happy if i had not done the
stupid things i did to end this r/s.. neither do i expect our love
to end up this way.. in fact i had already wanted to propose to her
end of this year.. only to do the most cruel thing a guy would had
done to a girl.. now i cannot even see her nor contact her.. my
heart is broken into a million pieces...
now i can only pray to heaven, that she`ll finally find someone
she loves, and probably love her and pamper her more than i do.. so
that i can swollow this pain myself.. at least happiness that i
cannot give to her, i hope someone else can..
If u need people to talk to, u can call me... cuz i
understand..
not that i want to upset you,
but i cried even more when i see this..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B4QkSa2-oX8
It's not easy to move on and it took mi blardy 3 years to move
on.
