it really meant alot to me, i just cant swallow the shitty fact
that the hardwork i put in did not give me results. where others
just breeze thru, ****
u cant swallow the fact? y be so concerned..? one mountain still
got one mountain higher..
what's important is whether u have learnt something and
benefitted from it in the end.. im sure whatever sports it is, u
would have been good at it right now..
last time i oso from a sports cca in secondary school.. summore
in the sports class.. but 2 yrs later kena kicked out.. go normal
class.. while the rest of my classmates go on and go tournament, go
zone, go nationals, win nationals.. while me? 4 yrs in badminton
leh.. never play one match with other school ppl b4..
if im u, i wun be here typing too.. den after that, go jc, join
track and field two years.. everyday training training training,
train until here pain there injured, same thing happen.. never go
nationals at all.. and guess what? it's not becoz im lousy or what
u know, it's becos the new guy was damn good at sucking up to the
teacher in charge.. then teacher choose him.. im always the pom-pom
boy, always the water boy, always the supporter, always the
logistics boy..
but den, all these has taught me that, it's not possible to be a
champion just becoz u worked for it.. there will be ppl better than
u.. but there are always ppl lousier den u... now becoz of my past
with sports, im healthier, and fitter.. and a better person who
takes losing in my stride, and not be a whiner about it..
when u look back next time, u realise that it's nothing..
really.. just like how u look back at primary school and larf about
those times when u are so afraid of punishment and like the whole
world is crashing down becoz u forgot to bring ur exercise
book..