In moments like this, when we should be at our strongest,
inevitably we feel at our weakest. It isn't her fault that she
treats you like a friend, and it isn't your fault if you
misconstrued it as something more. But think about it this way, off
hand, that if she were to become your girlfriend, you wouldn't be
comfortable since if she could be like that to you, if she goes out
with her friends and they are males, she could behave like that
with them as well and send out wrong messages. What you have is
freedom, choice, and a healthy bank account. The only thing
standing in the way is your mind. Consider carefully if certain
sacrifices are indeed worth making. Its not the easiest thing in
the world, but do try.
For depression, please refrain as much as you can from taking
anti-depressants. Most people do get hooked on it and rely too much
on chemical solutions rather than develop a strength of their own.
On the extreme, if you feel suicidal, think about why you like her
and if that aspect is really worth us losing a person like you. I
have no doubt you're nice.
To me, every sacrifice is worth it even if the rest of the world
does not think so. Even if it does take my everything and I end up
with nothing, I would still feel worth it because simply I love
her.
I did not take any medicine for the past few days as I also know
I did not want to rely on it. Anyway, I do not have
anti-depressants to take. I only have some kind of a relaxant which
helps me sleep better at night. Doesnt work as I will still wake up
in the middle of the night.
I like her because she is her. She is unique and special. She
loves her parents, siblings very much and is helpful. I like her
for who she is.
I place myself as 2nd importance because she is 1st. But am I
really doing so?
Thanks for saying I am nice but being nice is of no use because
nice guys finish last and no one appreciates them the way they are.
You say say its false but after what I been through, its a fact for
me.
