It has been like more than 20years during my secondary 4
days and i am still thinking about my ex-gal fren.
Our relationship was very short. Lets call her Hana A.
Last I heard she is married and have a daughter. 4-5 years
ago, we met at Tampines MRT and I am able to email her
and talked to her at her office. Somehow all is now
gone. It stopped just like that. I remembered giving
her 2 books for her to study on EXCEL. I really am
looking for her to see and talk to her. I just could not help
it, day and night been thinking of her. The feeling is not to start a relationship but to
just to see her face and hear her sweet voice.
I am married now with kids but my mind is very disturbed and
cannot forget her. I tried to tell myself that she is
somebody else but my mind refused to accept it. Hope Hana
will happen to read this.
i was in your situation for 5 years before i met another one.
The cycle will continue ...Interesting thing is that my old flame
also happen to live in Tampinese. always hanging around the
tampinese area in the late 1990s. My road to recovery was 5 years.
I tried to avoid places, events or things which will remind me of
her though its very very hard to do, u got no choice But i
try very hard to meet her at her residence that it bordered between obsession
and stalking. it was a one sided love and she did not
reciprocate my love. as a result i fell into alcoholism
Finally i left singapore for Aus to work just to forget her
as a relative of mine suggested this idea that a change of
environment will help.
But after the 5 year bitter-sweet
episode , i realised one thing, for every woman who doesnt love u, there is another in
the world who loves u. Its better to marry the woman who will probably love u for the rest of yr life.But the "memory"
still lingers on some corner of my mind ocaasionally pops out.
Now i am better able to deal with it than before/
I guess what doesnt kills u makes u stronger.
Once fallen, rise again stronger to face yr demons
who will probably haunt u for a long time