the feeling is that: i had hit her, this one we moved on,
sharing everything in a book, her mom read every page of it, from
the most innocent to the most explicit, not my gratification but
for memories.
in the end yes, it backfired. as much as we cannot be friends
now, a tinge of greatness runs through me. it feels so powerful to
destroy someone else's life like this. i know its wrong but she had
always given me the abusive words and degrading insults, i feel
like its retribution. and yes, she said, it was retribution for
her.
somehow as much as i wan to dissapear from her life, i feel the
urge to know what she is doing, but i wont stalk nor talk to her.
its pointless, maybe few months later.
but something i know is that she is going to throw away my
things, threatening to send my clothes back in rags and soft toys
without heads. such sadistic thoughts from a girl! i wan to get
back my stuff but i feel it is very hard to ask from her.
she has changed all her pw for msn and friendster and decided to
del me from both. today, the first day i slept well. i dont know
why i feel so relaxed now.
"the feeling is that: i had hit her, this one we moved on"
the feeling you had hit
her, i dun think u will move on though. you say ur counselling for
that but i dun think it has done anything to ur anger management
though.
"sharing everything in a book, her mom read every page of it,
from the most innocent to the most explicit, not my gratification
but for memories." my foot
lo! whatever reason you think u are doing it for, i do not think
it's for memories at all. it does not mean you want to remember,
she want to remember it all lo. in a way, i can sense ur evil
desires when you have done this lo.
"in the end yes, it backfired. as much as we cannot be friends
now, a tinge of greatness runs through me. it feels so powerful to
destroy someone else's life like this. i know its wrong but she had
always given me the abusive words and degrading insults, i feel
like its retribution. and yes, she said, it was retribution for
her." you are just finding
excuses for what you have done to make yourself feel better. if she
is indeed like that, you could be the one let go not by treating
her the way you do.
"she has changed all her pw for msn and friendster and decided
to del me from both. today, the first day i slept well. i dont know
why i feel so relaxed now." good for her that she has finally get rid
of you in her life. the way i see it, you are real devil
here.
