What is running through my mind is that, she had been giving her
best for me, she had been living the life I wanted her to live, by
doing things that pleases me. She loved me, that is why she did all
these. She asked me to change, encouraged me. The only setback was
that we were quarrelling and she had the 'always think I am right'
mentality. She had been faithful and devoted, even assuring me
before she is leaving for Australia. Now I did this to her, and
that I hit her, I totally regret my actions.
She asked me,' Why do you have to do things and then regret? Why
can't you think before you do so you will not regret? Now that you
done it, I cannot accept it, I am very dissapointed, I cannot be
with you anymore.' She told me she could not talk anymore, her
parents forbid us to talk.
As I downed bottles of beer, I called her. She told me that I am
making my parents, friends and her worry. What could I do? She told
me I am giving her a negative impression and that she'd rather I
give her some positive impressions. She hopes that I change and
give her positive impressions.
I regret my actions, I let my friends, her, her parents and
everyone around us down. I want to change. I need to change. I
asked her if the future could be seen, we would be together? She
told me she did not know. She knows that we have to be friends from
now on. I told her I will come back when I change.
Deep down inside I regret every action and I had tried calling
the SOS hotline. I know she is upset but she is strong. She will
get over it soon. But I am the one who did this and I had a guilty
conscience of letting her down time and again after she had given
me chances. She did her best, I did not, now I regret. I am sorry
to ... ... you.
Those who think I am a bastard, so be it. What is done is done,
what can be done is to curb my anger because everyone is saying my
anger is horrible. I am going for counseling nowadays and I hope to
change. I am a bastard, I am a loser, I am a weakling. i cry for
what I had done while she did not even shed a tear for me. I hit
her. Now is not the time for insults and hurtful words. I just need
to know what to do, how to do it and what are the things I should
do. I am very confused because my life had revolved around her.
Thank you for hearing me out.
She has already told you what needs to be done.. ARE YOU
LISTENING ?
She speaks her mind, but you choose to be deaf to her needs...
this is why your relationship has broken down.
Give her not what you want her to have. Give her what she wants
from her heart.
THIS IS WHAT SHE WANTS FROM YOU .
"She told me I am giving her a negative impression and that
she'd rather I give her some positive impressions. She hopes that I
change and give her positive impressions."
If you are still too stubborn to heed her requests.. then you
are only giving yourself a dead ended option.
