since i last felt the way I'm feeling now.
We're the best of friends for almost 4years already. Though some
people may say we appear like a couple. Deep down in me, I do hope
so. How he feels exactly? I cannot be sure.
He was always there for me. I THOUGHT he somehow feels for me too.
I was wrong, today. I saw all that I did for the past years,
wasted, into drain.
I did not make my feelings known to him. Again I THOUGHT he somehow
knew. He did not make any steps closer too. It's okay I always tell
myself, he is still single, and we are the best of friends, I am
his one and only female friend. We confide in each other many
times.
That night, he went clubbing with a few of his friends. One friend
brought along a girl. She was attached. The boyfriend was there
even! She still danced to her guy friends very closely.
As usual, we sms in the night, even during that night when he
dancing. He tells me about this girl. He got stunned at first
sight. He went out for a smoke and he calles me. I was so glad. We
talked alot for 16minutes even when his friends rushed him in, he
said No all cause he wants to talk on phone. He ask them go in
first.
After awhile, we hang. Still SMS a little, he stopped after awhile.
Until 3hours later he calls me again. He told me the girl pulled
him and danced to him. Grinded him. He said he felt happy in the
sense that at first sight he was already taken a liking to her, now
she dancing with him.
He could not get over it. He could not get over her. He askes me
Have you seen me this crazy over a girl after so long? No right! Oh
my god I cannot stop thinking of her.
So I heard that and I was thinking.. Okay you haven felt that for a
long time, neither have I felt what I am feeling now. Just earlier
on you making me so happy. Then suddenly those words come, I never
cried so hard in my life.
My fingers are trembling now as I am typing.
He says the girl is too wild, anyhow dance with guys. But the
friend that brought the girl there, said that today is the first
time she danced until so wild to anybody.
He told me he will try to know this girl and hope that she is not
those wild one. I said what a good friend would say Okay man, you
should go for her, though she is attached, but no harm making
friends first right. Never seen you so crazy for a girl before..
Haha. Happy ha this time.
Indeed, he sounded really happy. He could not even sleep. When we
were on the phone, he was not even paying Thirty percent of the
things I said.
Finally, I get to know how he feels. I am not sure if this is a
good or bad thing. But one thing for sure, I want to move on. But I
do not know if I can still kerb that feelings down whenever I see
him.
Thanks for reading this long post... I am really feeling silly
now...
