Hello there. Thank you for replying. Firstly I am 21 now.
We all go out as a group. Him and I have the same group of friends.
So he could see what I do for the other guys is nothing and to him
is everything.
I did not bothered to plan gatherings or birthday things for
everyone but him. I did not get flowers for the rest but him. I did
not buy food for the rest, but him.
I did not ever reject him of asking me out. I rejected some others
before. He needes me, he calles me, I reach the place, always
happens. Others call me, I make up stories to say I cannot make it.
Or If I have nothing to do so then I meet up, if not I do not
bother.
Others' perception affecting me, why so? I tell you.
Firstly Please understand he is not a very romantic kind of guy. He
will dies if his guy friends are not around. Seems boring. He is
crazy over games, during free time will always drive friends go to
LAN shop and do Counterstrike the wholeday. He told me before he
does not tolerate girls who are unreasonable and demanding, even if
already is his girlfriend, he will ignore her. He feels that it is
not right. From this I can say he is not those "giving in" kind of
boyfriend.
But I am okay. I know I can have the patience to deal with him
(Sadly I have no chance to). He is not romantic, Okay, I am
romantic, I can do many things for him. He do not even have to lift
a finger. I am willing to help him in all.
Going into others' perception after granny story up there.
I am not optimistic about the thing between him and I now. I never
do think that we will be a couple even that has always always
always been my wish/hope.
So Situation One if I do tell him I love him. He rejects me. Our
group of friends, same group.. All will be very awkward to be
together anymore. Because I am very surely that they will be
informed of this "gossip". I do not know how to handle such kind of
situations. So best is to not be in one. So I will not tell him how
I feel.
Situation Two if we become a couple. Breaks off in a few years
after. How do we still go out and have fun with the group of
friends? Please remember, same group of friends. Hard? I do not
only care about this group of friends, but I also know his sister.
We go for manicures/pedicures and salons and we even travel
together to Bangkok before. We are very close, his family knows me,
but my family does not know him that well sad to say.
Even so close to his sister, 25 this year 2007. I do not tell her
about my feelings of her brother. They have a younger brother of 14
but I seldom see him. I know his sister and him are very close,
just like friends. They talk about everything, when no one to go
shopping, he will accompany her. He will be like the boyfriend,
help to carry bag and put arms around the sister. That is very
close am I correct?
So I cannot tell the sister also. I met 3 close friends earlier on
who known about my feelings of this guy. They say I am stupid to
encourage him, I am stupid to suffer all these, I am stupid to even
do so much for him.
Now I really do not know where to head. And by the way, he is same
as me, 21 this year 2007.
