Hello dear (:
I've just typed one long post, but something went wrong and now I
have to type it again (darn). But I'll cut to the point.
Please stop drinking your nights away, you know it does not solve
anything, so stop doing it. Instead of thinking about her 24/7,
build a wall around that thought, and do something to get that out
of your mind. Hang out with your friends, make new ones, get a
hobby. Anything but drown yourself in alcohol.
If I were you, I'd break up with her, even if it hurts me. Being
hurt by her is much worse, in my opinion.
Why break up, you may ask.
There are two reasons - you can find out her true feelings, and
maybe get rid of all the suffering you are going through.
There are 2 possible situations during the break up scene:
1) She'll accept it, no questions asked (or maybe just a "Why
?").
If this is the case, then you have made the right choice in
breaking up with her, because if she does not show emotion, it
means she does not feel as strongly for you as you do for her. And
you deserve more than that.
2) She'll show emotion, cry, and ask questions like why, what went
wrong, etc.
If she does something like this, then comfort her and tell her why
you decided to break up with her. Tell her you don't feel that
she's treating you as well as you treat her, and you don't want to
waste your life away waiting for her to show her true feelings. If
things go right, and you find out she really does love you, you
still can take back your "break up". Ask for another chance for her
to prove that she loves you.
Sometimes, the only thing you can do to get a heart to spill its
true thoughts, is to just break it.
I hope this post helps, good luck with your relationship (: Any
questions, just quote me and ask (:
