As of my previous posts, I talked to everyone about my situation
but no one wants to realise my position. I am posting this
in all seriousness about my feelings as I am helpless and I wish to
seek help here as the first option
My family fails to listen to me and my girlfriend does not want to
listen to my problem as she says she has work problems. My problem
of the limitation of freedom is so big that I feel I have lost a
mere sense of mutual respect from everyone around me. I am
beginning to feel that life continuing on like this has no
purpose.
I have evaluated my thoughts. I talked and discussed matters only
to be rebuked by my mother like this 'Anything you say, you will
think it is right so I have no comments because you only think of
yourself.' I am compromising yet she wants to be right. I have
thought of a plan rationally but she holds her ground. I am
helpless. Does it give her a permanent high to see me being
submissive? I want to stand up to my parents yet they make things
difficult.
I feel that my parents curb my potential. I have always thought
about a compromising plan so we both could be happy, if not, least
unhappy. However, everytime I try to be tactful, my plea gets
thrown out even without the slightest concern.
I feel suicidal because I cannot continue being oppressed by my
mother. My girlfriend has so many things to see to, she neglected
me. Trust me, if I told her how I feel, I would get a 'What is it
again now' type of look and she would tell me she is too
busy.
I feel that whatever I do cannot be achieved because my potential
is stunted by these 2 women of my life. I am truely troubled. Even
if I break up with my girlfriend, my mother will always be my
mother. Suicide has been my last option yet I have
exhausted other options My mother will dismiss everything
as a family affair if I seek professional help. I am helpless. I do
not want to wash the dirty linen in public too.
I am mentally tired and I do not wish to continue yet it breaks my
heart to end everything. Thinking back, I have nothing.
