Your need to change
your mindset requires certain degree of inner strength to initiate
and drive this campaign over a vast period of time. A short trip
will not bring you anywhere. Your mind must have that level of
clarity to decide what you want out of life and the kind of
decision that would lead you to this goal.
It isn't as simple as stating that you would need to change
yourself and the way you view things and that will suffice. In
certain agreement, yes, that's all you would need to overcome your
hurdle, but beneath this sentence conceal massive challenges you
will face before you could achieve wholesome freedom and
liberty.
With my limited knowledge, I have yet to spot any suicide tendency
in your chart. In fact, if you really want to kill, I would say
kill off the 'old personality' and bring forth the birth of a new
you. Your depression is cyclical, I ended my progression
calculation at 19.58 years old for your depression forecast, but it
will return (Earth is round, so is our natal chart) and if you have
not build a robust Self by then, it will hit you the same force and
send you spiralling towards the gruesome maw of depression once
again.
Aside to the rest of the forumer: please be a
little sensitive towards others. 
Cheers
