im t just turned 15. i know m since p5 till now and we're really
close. m's 14.we text alot since p5 and has since cut down after
dad complained about bills. but i still talk to m on msn almost
everyday.we meet every week starting october this year.
m used to blog about how much she loves me. she also wrote about
how she always think of me and that she hopes i ask her again to
get together. i asked her before but she rejected and moved on with
s. m then broke up with s and she began blogging about me.
i didnt know m loves me so much. that was way back to earlier this
year.we treat each other so much so like best friends. i used to
read her blog secretly. now, she doesnt blog about me anymore. but
posts pictures and articles about our outings.
funny thing is, m always holds my hand and always joke about my ex
who asked me whether i wanted to hold her hand when i was in p6. m
and me hold hands in the bus, and m always lie on my shoulder
too.
i feel the soothing "warmth" and ive never felt anything like it. i
really like m. safe to say i love m. but im very very anxious
everytime i try to ask her "do you think we can get together". i
dont know if m still loves me.
problem is, i dont have money. i always ask my mom for money when i
go out.and i always get $4 or so. im from a very decent family like
every other family honestly. live in hdb, dad's sole breadwinner.
mom stopped work since she delivered again.
i TOTALLY UNDERSTAND mom's situation of course. cant possibly ask
mom for money all the time. she not working and always asks dad for
money for groceries.
if i were to have a relationship with m, how am i to provide for
her when we go out? i always treat her drinks which i can afford.
but food? i always ask her are you gna have lunch at home or out, i
always have mine home cos mom's the best cook ever. rarely eat out.
so if m is to makan out, she always gives me money and i take her
order. recently, when i sent m home, she asked me cheekily for a
kiss. i wanted to kiss her so much. my lips were already close to
her cheeks yet i didnt kiss her. happened 2 times. she said i
shudve kissed her properly. and im certain im gna give her a proper
kiss in the cheek on tuesday.
if i were to go into a relationship with m, i would always hope m
would agree that love dont always require money but our love for
each other itself.
m has got everything ive wanted. outgoing, hip, hot, super friendly
and all. no other girl are like her. i really do love m. we are
going out on tues and ive been thinking whether i should ask her
"you think we can get together?".
thank you all for taking your time reading. appreciate it
alot.
