Yo dude,
You should not look down on yourself, brighten up, you got yourself
a good gf, some of the boys here are still single and will be
admiring you ya, stick to your gf, dun ever have class
differentiation in Love, as a gal, we would much preferred a caring
bf rather than a bf who know how to have sex only, your thinking is
mature and logical, you feels that you should not hurt others, you
likes to compare, you conceived in your mind too much self
punishment and low self esteem, but let me tell you, your gf will
be please to have you, talk to her, she is the only one that knows
you well and care for you, perhap for the rest of her life. So
instead of self condenming yourself, you should learn to cherish
the moment, the wonder of life ya.
As for your parents, the so call not allowing you to work or go out
may be misintrepreted as not giving you space, but actually they
love you so much that they do not wish you see you get hurt outside
that may damage your health further. However, theirs expression of
love to you take a conservative stand, by 21 yo, you should start
to talk to them, get aunties and uncles involve, siblings too, tell
them about your plans and what you wish to be, communicate
constantly, do not feel sad when things dun work out, use another
way of approach, all parents will alway have a soft spot for their
son, and you are no different. Do not look inward, look outward
with happiness in approach them, thanks them for their caring and
love for you, express yourself clearly to them. I believe they will
be so happy for you, as a son, who are willing to strive and work
despite all the difficulties in health.
Guess what dude, you are much better than me, I lost my mom since
young, Dad alway go work or with his gfs, left with me, my grandma
and her silly cats and also a maid, so boring, but then I have
learn to understand life better to stay happy than being sad, so i
planned my destiny. If grandma do not let me out, i go out with her
lor, if she do not let me work, i bring her along to my workplace
lor, if she dun allow me to stay late, i bring the maid along to
keep her inform lor. With all her discipline restriction, i know
deep inside is because she so love me that she is not prepare to
let me go.
We are youngs, should enjoy our young life, go ask your parents
what they did during their young age, and they may realise that in
restricting you, they are restricting a youth freedom. Oldies are
people that need respect, with respect, they are more willing to
listen and agree on your request.
