I think he might be happier with another girl. I thought about
things and I think that I have done as much to set him up with the
kind of life he wanted- house, car, whatever. Its just the wrong
girl he's with now. I think he should get another girl. If I die,
insurance will be handsome. He will be debt free, his father can
gamble to his heart content, the family can live off the money I
left. So wouldn't it be nice. Perhaps, i think about it and then
push myself I little harder and become a little more tired - I
might just fall asleep and wake up in hell... yeah its a depressing
idea but to me its a wonderful thought.
