Dear laosu
I feel so sad upon reading your story.. and I really wish to curse
your stupid maths teacher for passing such a stupid and harsh
comment. Instead of encouraging you, instead of believing and
helping you, say something like that. I hate this kind of teacher,
but they still exist in this world.. If i am parent and my child
tell me that, I will complain to the school, write to forum,
complain to moe.. 
Anyway, sometimes I also isolate myself and switch off handphone..
but 2 weeks being a bit too long..
I also have been to depression around late teenage. During
secondary school first 2 years i also don't have friends, then till
later 2 years manage to find friends, but I realised also those I
found are not true friends. I have to be hurt again and again by
their wierd and hot temper. But because of this, my tolerance level
for people are better than others. Now when people do bad things to
me, I get hurt and angry and cursed, but when I calm down after a
few hours, I will remember of the good things they do, say to
others, altho not me, but I appreciate the efforts they made for
others, so I think afterall they may not be that bad ! It is
wierd.. haha
Depression can be cure and so does all types of personalities
disorder. It is better to discover it early and do something. Had
it not been for depression, and low self esteem I may not have to
repeat year during poly and how i try also never really do well in
school. I cannot tell u how it happen, but it is a very sick case
of low self esteem. I cannot even leave my house, i need a few
hours to prepare myself. And to make things worst, it worsen when a
classmate pass a very evil remark and depression goes on for a few
years, after that simple remark, maybe it was more than once.. hurt
a pretty more times.. haha.. now i no longer hate that person
because the scar have healed. Time really heals the heart..but
sometimes, is not days or months, for this thing, it took me
entirely 4-5 years.. but initial symptoms happened when i was in
childhood and to primary school and to secondary school. Because i
was not aware this is not normal and thus no action taken and thus
when discovered, it can come as a big setback..
Actually, life can be good. Now, i although hold a job i don like
and stress me alot, but i appreciate it is still a job and give me
an income and money to slowly save money for my dream. So to me, i
really try to focus on the good points in those tricky situations.
Now i may not have many friends, but i have a true and good friend.
I really enjoy meeting nice people and being helpful to people.
When i meet bad people.. i really wish they will die faster..
haha.. but come to think of it, should i really be angry over them?
damage my health and make more wrinkles on my face? I don't bother
about them ! At least i know, there are truely good people in this
world, so life is still good, at least there are good people to
neutralise the evil people...
I hope to all those troubled by personalities disorder or
depression to be able to overcome the crisis and continue to
improve their life.. I understand how u all feel because i also
have a similar life. I would encourage people with problems to take
multi vitamins, like B and etc... I take them frequently.. I
believe that vitamins can help to improve the feelings of
depression. It can help abit, but you must also try to think
positive, and slowly slowly look at the world with different
angles.. and I believe with determination, life slowly improves..
Seeing a psychiatrist or counsellor or telling a really good friend
helps to lighten the burdens. ultimately it takes time to feel
better and free from it..
Believe and it will happen. Don't believe and it won't happen
!
Hugs,
hamster
