i got to know this gal abt half a year ago... everything was
fine btw us, and we were v close, but she told me she didnt want to
get into a relationship for the next month or two. i was fine with
it, and never bugged her to be with me or whatsoever.
she's been telling me she yearns to be with me, she wants to be my
partner, but deep down inside, i think she doesnt mean it.
abt a month ago, she left me, and i knew it was because of a guy.
but she claimed it wasnt because of him and she had no feelings for
him. but i knew she was lying, because my friends saw them out, and
told me abt it. i also read her text messages sent to/from him...
she told him she missed him, missed his hugs/kisses etc...
i asked her about it indirectly (not telling her that i read her
msgs) but she still claimed that she'd already given him up because
she only feels for me. not long ago, she again, told me she loved
me, but just today, i read her messages again, and she sent one to
him. saying that she wanted to meet him for a while, to lock
lips....
many times i told myself to hate her and move on, but everytime she
talks to me or appears in front of me, i'll just hopelessly fall in
love with her again. i know its bad of me to read her text
messages, but... i just couldnt help it at all.
i dont know why she still come up with lies to keep me with her,
when so obviously she also wants to be with the guy too. maybe its
because she wants the best of both worlds. i know i hate her for
doing this. and many times i've told myself to hate her to the
core, but i just can't.
she knows i've given her my best and almost everything i have.. but
she still doesnt want to be with me. im fine with it.. but which
guy can accept a girl who keeps another guy with her too????
maybe im just hopeless and dead stupid.
