A question I'd ask is: how much of such success stories are
true? People can say whatever they want, such stories can be a
masquerade of the real picture, whatever this picture may be.
I know I am not supposed to be feeling this way, and I might have
even become unfriendly to them because of this. Not that they would
care, cos who am I to them? Just a good-for-nothing, an
acquaintance, nothing more than that.
If you are really an acquaintance to them, then the first para
should not matter, right? Then the real issue is: who are your real
friends and how genuine are they to you and vice versa.
Somehow, deep inside me, I am convinced that I will do something
great one day, but at this point of my life, it seems like I am
banging my head against the wall thinking about what that might be.
I can't find any proof to support my conviction, but somehow my
heart just believe so firmly in it. Even when my mind tells it that
that is just a dream and nothing else, it is still there. I do not
know why my instinct is stubbornly holding to something I think is
false dreams because it will only disappoint me in the end when I
do not do something great after all.
We need to establish what is "doing something great". Do you
mean a new invention, a new cure for cancer, what? Or do you mean
make tons of money and become the poster girl/boy for innovation?
You need to understand that most people are never going to be in
this position. Sure, one can dream, but one need to be realistic
about what is achievable and what is not.
I am confused and depressed over this, especially when more and
more of my friends are coming up to me to tell me about their
interviews and success...I even had to resort to blasting my music
so that I do not have to listen to my roomie talking to her bf
about how her interview went when they are both in the
room...
Go ahead and let your "friends" get to you.... if you do this,
you'll never be able to pick yourself up. I'd ask myself what I
want to do at the moment. If the interviews are not coming, I'd ask
myself why. You need to get behind the reasons as to why things are
not happening for you. Here's where a clear and analytical should
take over the emotive downward spiral of negative thoughts.
How to control my feeling of envy before it eats into me further?
Sorry for the long post...
Some people choose to talk about what they've achieved, others
don't. Some people exaggerate their achievement while others are
more down to earth. Realise that!
Well, let them talk all they want.....
Are you looking for a job? I take it that you are an undergrad.
What's important to you? The ability to brag about what you've
achieved? Or more concrete steps to go the direction you want to
take?
