My life story... So far

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Anakin Jr Junior Member Joined: 30 Apr 2005 Posts: 22 Send Message 10 July 2005 · 10:31 PM Originally posted MRMUSICPRODUCER: i think u belong 2 the gen y...

Anakin Jr SG

My life story is like a rip off from that of my fave anti-hero Adrian Mole.

Question: I am 23 & ¼ years old. What have I done with my life?
Answer: Nothing

As I was packing my room, I realized I have not acquired a lot in life. I have a decent wardrobe of nice clothing, bought a new Acer notebook last week & just received my diploma from a private university. But deep down I really feel, with every fibre of my beings, like a LOSER.

ACADEMIC

I flunked both my O & A levels. Lets take a look at my O levels grades first:

O Level Results
Chinese--- A1
English---B3
E Maths---B3
A Maths---C6
Science--- D7
History--- E8
Literature--- A for Absent

Pretty OK results for the first 4 subjects? Unfortunately, I flunked all the remaining subjects. As a result (no puns intended), I could enter neither a JC nor Poly, and ended up in a 3 years Pre-U course. The course felt like eternity & the Principal & teaching staff made me felt like a juvenile delinquent.
My A levels were even more impressive. Other than GP & Chinese, I failed all of the 3 A levels subjects. This explains why I am in SIM, doing a diploma in management. Despite working very hard, Ive only managed slightly above average grades for the diploma.
Im starting the 2nd of the degree course next week & Im really feeling the jitters after 3 months of carefree despondency.

I could never fathom why I did so disastrously for 2 most of the most significant National exams.
Even amongst the slackest of my peers, most of them scrapped through the Os & As with a minimum Full Cert . What scares me is I actually studied hard for these exams. Ok, maybe not barred-no-hold effort, but considerable effort.

I am contemplating a brain scan, but the high cost is putting me off.

Anakin Jr SG

FRIENDS

The umber of friends I have approximate the umber of fingers on one hand. Ive not been to a movie or clubbing for almost 3 years, not cos Ive no money or no time, but simply cos I have no company.
I honestly do mind going to the movie alone (did that many times now), my greatest fear is only those lovey-dovey couples sitting beside me. Argghh How I scorn these people!!

I am also deciding if I should terminate my hand phone line. I basically do not get any calls or sms, apart from mom & sporadically official matters ( NKF donations, dubious lucky draw winnings). My good friends calls me only when they need 1) to borrow money 2) Run errands or listen to their problems. Once settled, I will never ever hear from them again. Until they are in trouble again

As a result of my virtually non-existent social life, my likes & dislikes have also grown distinctly apart from others.
Like:
Monday
Tuesday

Dislike:
Sat
Sun
Public Hols
Valentine **
Christmas **
New Year

Neutral:
Friday
Chinese New Year
Ghost Festival

** such occasions should be scrapped

LOVE

I have an overwhelmingly vexing love life, which suffocates me almost every nite. It all boils down to the problem there is no love at all--- Relationship or Friendship--- in my life; the vacuum is drowning me.
It pains me to think if I would to die today, how few would the turn out for my funeral be. Other than my parents & close relatives, I am saddened that how few frens & ex-lovers may be there. Most of my friends & ex-lovers probably wouldnt even know, since they have long ceased to contact me.
The prospect of such an embarrassing scenario has kept me from committing suicide

I conclude that I must either have
1) A grotesque, repellant appearance or
2) Some serious character flaws or
3) Psychotic illness ( My psychiatrist says its depression, not schizophrenia)

Why do I find it so difficult to have something easily inherent in most people--- finding a decent girlfriend & having a few friends to hang out with

StarPuppy SG

One word:STRESS

dragg SG

lots of people become successful in their later years.

Mystry SG

Two roads diverged in a wood, and I -
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

BeEtHoVeN SG

that is very nice Razz

Pion SG

Heh_{.. Im 20, an infamous student, just wondering aimlessly
with no direction, no goals in my life..Ur not alone dude}

Mystry SG

Sometimes we just screw up in life. I'm somewhat like you too. And though we cannot go back a make a brand new start, we can start from now and make a brand new ending.I have had a few girlfriends, ironically none had ever existed on Valentine's day.

Ito_^ SG

doesn't matter whether u are happy or not - life still goes on. that is the bottom line, it was never about you. even if you would to die, the world will still continue to revolve.

state yourself a goal in life, and work steadily towards it. thats all.

didn't you got an above average grade in your diploma? that proves there is still hope.

droopyeyes SG

it's not just your grades..

i feel that something's amiss. maybe there's something wrong with ur character.. HAHA..

solution: go visit a counsellor.. or do some reflections. find the root of the problems and resolve it from there. =)

pipi & poot-poot SG

Sounds like Anakin is headin towards d dark side again

Haiz....may d force b wif u

Rolling Eyes

Gurlie SG

Hey. come on. why think on the bad side of life?
i'm sure there's something good about your life that you like and are proud of.
cheer up. be more optimistic.
get out there. know more people. take the initiative to meet up with friends and keep in contact with them. if you can't be bothered to take the effort to keep your friends, then you'll end up with little or no friends at all.
you dun have to feel so lonely. all it takes is just some effort to keep your friends.. =)

drx SG

After reading your so call sad story just feel like slaping you straight in the face.

So wat ? you get poor result ? You still get into an uni course right? DO you think that a O level or a A level even a dip level result matters when you get an uni degree?

You got so much chance to study and need not work at all and complain so much.

Other people cannot even have the chance to study, they got to work so hard that they wish they had your chance.

So quit saying how bad you are and just work hard.

If you hate holidays so much i suggest you go do some work at the old aged home. At least you can make someone happy rather then complain how bad your life is.

Mystry SG

I think his main problem here is the lack of people in his life. No matter how successful or rich a person is, without people, there is no meaning to life. U have to open up more and start talking to people.

ShrodingersCat SG

heheheh... one thing you CAN do though... is write.

perhaps you should concentrate on going what you are good at, rather than struggling to be mediocre at what you don't seem to get the hang of.

I peeped into this post, expecting to be bored - I mean, who wants to read yet another moping, whining life story? Instead it was a pitiless baring of soul tempered by a very funny wry, slightly-bitter, self-mocking humour.

And if you've got a sense if humour, I think you are better equipped than most to handle what's life got in store. Certificates, Cash, Charming Consorts - trust me, they're overrated. With regards to Chums though, I think you need to find new ones. The current ones you have don't seem too reliable.

Just try not to let the bitterness get too seeped in, ya? Like adrian mole, he.. uhh despite other inadequacies - heheh he does have lots of hope. Misplaced or otherwise.

hee.

LazerLordz SG

I took the same path as you, were you in JI or OI?

Cheer up my good fellow, don't dwell too much on the past, but use it as a platform to remake yourself and find your path.

-den-7 SG

yaya...cheer up dude...u'll find ur place soon enuff...try to be more open..like make up conversations or something....also...get a job...something dat may help u interact with people more...trust me it helps...this coming from experience Smile

LazerLordz SG

We all operate at different speeds..some fast then slow, some vice-versa.

So you might just hit your vein of form soon.

petanque SG

like my motto says..

life is a marathon. It may seem long but as long as u take a step forward, u ll get there somehow..

so keep running

mistyblue SG

A.J.

Don't be so hard on yourself.
Success is not always measured in the manner you are doing now in terms of material or grades etc. And really, what you do with yourself and your life, is what counts.
Other people will have opinion but its their opinion. What matters is what you want to do with yourself. Its not always important to follow the same academic path as everyone. Being good in school don't mean anything about success in life.