To brother babyboy, just want to extend a really warm thanks to
you,for your opinions and views, and to all other brothers, thank
you very much. I feel better now, im glad to hear im on the right
track. Indeed, im not giving her any pressure, am setting her free
to think about it. In fact, i told her to think over it slowly and
not make a hasty decision. If she still decide to break with me, i
will accept the decision and not mess up her life(like what her ex
is doing). I told her i love her and hence if breaking up makes her
happier, then so be it and i will accept it. But again, i also said
im not giving up without a fight, so yes i can only try to pretend
to be happy myself, and talk silly jokes to make her laugh(even if
its only temperory), and yes i've already check out the tours.
Might be going to bangkok for a few days to R&R, hope the tour
proceeds on smoothly. Let her get away from S'pore so won't see or
hear from him, or think of sad things so much.
Today just went out for a short walk with her, she still has the
very 'sian' face, and sadly, she doesn't seem to hold my hand as
much as she did before this incident. Felt very upset but i still
put up a brave front and try to make her laugh.. cannot let her
know im so sad because if i don't give her support at this moment,
who will? Even if she might leave me, i still can't bear to see her
sad. I just want her to be happy.
She said its difficult to forget because its 3 years..did many
things together and went many places together.. so go to any place
also will strike up memories of him. I said i willing to give her
as much time as she needs but then again, she don't sound convinced
that she will forget him. I also said its normal to have such
feelings.. like 'nostalgia' feelings.. and hopefully they will fade
away slowly after a few months/years ( thats if she haven't break
with me..)
Right now, im doing all i can to fight to keep her by my side. At
the same time, im sad to see her to 'sian' look(prob depressed but
trying not to show it). And i still need to fake to be happy to
cheer her up. What a struggle.. not easy.. but im going to push my
chin up, suck thumb and DO IT!!!
