believe me.. u r not the worst out there.. there R pple who R
worst off then U,Pick urself up.. and move on.. whatever we say is
not going to do anything inside ur brain.. bt Believe me.. time
will fade the memories off ur Head....
How I noe.. cos i been thru there nt long ago... and I still moving
on.. It will forever b a dark patch of our life.. We must move on
and B better then her.. 
GO do some volunteer... u see U R more fortunate then most pple
outside.. 