True life story believe a not

last SG · 2004-11-27T07:42:23+00:00

Before u got steady with a guy, open your eyes big big first..

kiekie SG

Sry, i was too tired yesterdae, so i nv log in. have to rush to work now, check me out again!!

killsardine SG

ur story quite interesting sia
can go write for ch 8
but hor u one leg stand 2 boat ar
how come before taking O's results got 2 bf one

kiekie SG

I tink u must have misunderstood. I repeated my Olevel in 1998 u see, cuz I scored 30points for the 1st attempt in 1997. Mayb my stories r too long, thus confusing some of u here

I got to know my
1st BF in 1995 from 25 nov to ?? Nov 1997 = 2yrs
2nd BF in 1998 sometime b4 March(b4 the Olevel announcement tat I got 30pt!!) last till Nov I tink(after my 2nd attempt for O level.) = 9mth
3rd BF in Jan 1999 to Sept 1999= 8mth
4th BF in 1999 Sept to 2001 Dec =2yr +(poly days, sighz..)
5th BF in 2002 near CNY to 2002 April= 4mth
6th BF in 2002 April to 2002 September= 5mth
7th BF in 2002 Sept till now( still together la.. abt 2yr +

I m going out already. Will update other info again.

nOrmalbOi SG

wah u... seasoned liao ah... can get one immediately after the last one... pro wor... make me wonder how much u actually care about ur current bf..

Seventh_Son SG

This is really an interesting story....
any more to come? Smile

foxwalk SG

wah lau, u think ur writing resume huh?
i think u r quite lame loh..

akino SG

haha i nv go n remember all these stuff... i only remember the present one, when i started.. hehe u r good! Wink

Devil1976 SG

Hmm... Wonder if ya keep a diary or something...? Cool

Devil1976 SG

She just sharing and voicing out what...? Mr. Green

kiekie SG

** Coughz** Thanks huh.. ya, maybe u r right. Theres more to come. U might even call me a slut or unfaithful. But I m not writing a resume, its juz tat I jot down all the past in a so call diary. I posted all the dates to keep track as well as to remind myself wat I had posted or missed so far.

Mayb guys out there will feel tat I m a nonsense or wat, but as I mentioned earlier, I dun mind any ve remarks. I mean these r my past and I found this forum a good place for me to voice out my hidden past. Cuz not every single thing tat happened n ur life u r able to confide in ur fren. Sometimes, I feel tat writing down is a good way of expressing ur thoughts and venting ur agonies.

poon cho tang SG

more exciting than mediacorpse dramas

kiekie SG

Part 3: 3rd BF
He was my schoolmate, actually my frens ex. Hes charming, faithful, loving, humorousetc, everything tat a girl looks for.

We only got closer after he recommended me a job; workin for his frens aunt. Gradually, our friendship developed further. Before me, he was in love in a girl(from our same sec), he told me tat she actuali rejected him. So he was very sad.. and hated all chio girls.

I was glad tat he was honest and willing to tell me his past, as most of the guys out there wud rather not reveal too much of their past to avoid any uninviting troubles.

The sad thing he told me, is something tat I will remember for life. Cuz girls r prone to be the more sensitive ones. He said he chose me because I m average looking. cuz chio girls tend to have more admirers and get tempted easily. He said tat I was lucky tat the girl whom he liked, rejected him if not how wud he chose me! I was traumatized wif his words, but pretended as thou I felt nothing.

INSIDE my heart, I felt utterly disappointed, mayb I m too sensitive and calculative. But he was the 1st guy who ever told me tat, which makes me feel so lousy abt myself. I mean even if he feels tat I m not BEAUTIFUL, he should not have said that mah.

kiekie SG

Continued: Part 3
It was near June when my 1st Bf called me out of the blue.
We chatted on the phone and he told me tat he and tat girl had broken up liao. We met up for a movie and he realized I had changed a lot.. In fact, I was over the moon, when he called..cuz I tot our fate had ended.. in nearly 2yrs, we nv contact each other AT ALL.

After tat we met up for a few times, chatting and going to east coast.
We mentioned abt our past, he complained tat last time I always nv bother to ask him where he goes or who he goes out with..blah blah blah.. I told him, he also nv check on me mah.. Everytime I tok to him or saw him, I wud be dumbfounded. Actuali I have a lot to ask and tell him but when I saw him, I became speechless.. I duno y I hold back my thoughts.

I nv told my 3rd bf abt the meetups, cuz i scared tat he wud be furious. ( I M BAD, I KNOW.) When I got into Poly, gradually my bf and i seldom have time to meet up. He was retaking his Olevel as a private candidate and works at a banquet from evenings to midnights. While I was busy managing my studies and projects.

I got to know a guy whos in the same course as me. We were taking the same lift to our lab, who noes, he was a blurred blurred. He got out at the wrong lvl and quickly dashed into the lift when he saw tat I was still in it. In my heart I was giggling mad.. This big guy is so funny.. When we stepped into the lab, I realized tat he was my partner as we go according to our sir name. And our 1st initial r the same. We shared a lot in common and often go for breaks together( I mean in a group wif other frenz).

Soon I broke up wif my bf because of him, I knew tat I was selfish and cruel for doing this.. ALL my frens, my buddies.. chided me for ditching him. For to them he was really a good bf, as I said hes everything tat every girl looks for.

Despite of feeling bad, I felt Great because he should regret for those hurting words he had said. I mean since u feel tat I m sucks, I might as well find someone who noes how to appreciate me.
When we break, he told me tat he never tot tat I will be the 1 initiating BREAK.
Cuz he tot tat I m so afraid tat he might leave me for a better looking girl, who noes, its the opposite.

kiekie SG

Part 4: 4th Bf
We do almost everything together under the sun. In our campus, we r the loving dovely couple. He did the sweetest thing for me like folding stars and taking me for a meal on the cable carlots more. I mean, I m not the demanding type, and every little things he had done touches my heart. Hes shy and often got teased and bullied by his frenz even thou hes big built. So everytime he got into all these shiits, I wud be the one backing up for him.. Haha, sounds aggressive. Cuz hes the ching chai type, pple insulted him he oso will take it as a joke tat type. I remembered there was one funny incident when he was chased by one of our female classmates. She chased him around the pillars of the pavement outside our campus, pulling his bag and he went round and round all the pillars trying to escape from her. I forgotten wat made her chased after him, but it was really funny.. a big guy running around and being pulled by a girl.

kiekie SG

Continued Razz art 4
No doubt hes so kind, I dun noe how to appreciate him. I shouted at him, call him a blur king blahblahablah I admit I m not a good gf to him. I took his weakness as an advantage. There was once, I saw a puzzle tat I realy love, it was so sweet, but very costly :$50+. He wanted to buy for me, but I dun want, cuz its too costly, I dun want to waste his $. One day, we had a heated argument then he told me tat he actuali bought the puzzle for me as our anniversary surprise. And had a hard time fixing up the puzzle for me cuz the sky was in many blue tones. I was still angry wif him but moved by him. I volunteered to help him in the process.

B4 me, he had a 6yr r/s. And his grandma like her very much. Even thou they were no longer a pair, she often comes over to his huse to visit his grandma. I often saw her, I dun feel jealous or angry at all. Cuz shes kind hearted, soft spoken and very lady like. His grandma hated me for the 1st sight, cuz she like tat girl very much. I know tat girl was still in love wif my bf. But I told myself, even if he wana go back to her, I oso cant do anyting cuz they have being together for so long. So let nature takes its course.

kiekie SG

I tried my best to change his grandma impression
Whenever I greeted her, she dun even look at me and dun say reply la.. She hated me to bits.

She dun tok to me at all and always show a black face. I didnt give up, I tried all kinds of way to make her opinion change.

Near her bdae, she invited his ex gf to her bdae dinner, but didnt ask me to go at all. So I kept quiet, I noe in her heart, shes an angel while I was the devil. In the end, his maid urged his grandma to invite me, but I pretended tat I wasnt feeling well. So I went home. It was tormenting..

however, things became better when I bought her a bag for her bdae. She began to tok m0re and even smiled at me. I was realy very happy!!!!! My hard work realy paid off! She wud even confided in me like how jealous she was when all of us listened to the maid. She felt she has no authority in the huse. Nobody listens to her now.

His maid is like their bao mu. Shes very intelligent and hardworking. She noes how to speak their dialect, English and Mandarin. And was agood advisor.

He has a younger sis whom we had better terms when I helped out at his mums shop in the wkends. She looks very dao, cuz she dun trust pple tat easily(due to her bad exp). but when u gained her trust, she can be as crazy as u can imagine. We are good frens even up to now.

When we worked together, she always complained tat she had became as plump as me! Haha.. cuz we always eat eat and eat. One day, the maid came to help out, we began to be 38 po. The maid understand my feelings and told his sis how ke lian I was in the past, being tortured by ah ma. We all hugged together and cried. They were glad tat ah ma finally accepted me. The maid even said tat the route was not a easy one. I was touched tat at least someone care.

kiekie SG

However whenever I help out at his mum shop, he wud go canoeing wif his frens on sat. And often goes out wif a girl named XH and another guy fren. I wanted to go canoeing with him but he dun want to bring me along.

Returning to the puzzle part, near xmas in 2001, I jokingly asked him whether he completed the puzzle, he was very furious and we quarrel again. He said tat I promised to help him in it and now I demand the puzzle from him! He said tat I was ridiculous and unreasonable. So he broke up wif me at city link. He walked off w/o turning his head back.. I was standing there..all alone. I was shocked and lost. I romped around the area, walked to Millenia, walked to Suntec and Marina Sq. I bought myself a pack of cigarette and was choked cuz I duno how to smoke.

I took a cab home, staring at my hp hoping tat he wud call but he nv. In the end, I called him. I dun want to wait any more. He said he was sory for being harsh and took a cab to my huse. We cried together. In the end, he still wana break up wif me. I know he canot tahan me anymore. I asked him to go n die and fuk off.. Tat night, I cant sleep. So I gobbled down 21 panadols; (Panadols which I hate to take since young, cuz the tablet is too big for me to swallow.) I duno where I got the courage to eat so many. And I even told my bro tat I couldnt sleep so I ate some panadols. Shortly after, I felt very drowsy and fell into deep sleep. I woke up at around 7am.Feeling nausea and dizzy. I vomited all over my bed and was crying. My mum preparing to work was shocked.

She brought me to a 24hr clinic and I was immediately sent to TTSH. I vomited all the slimy yellowish stuffs with lots of foam. It was like hell. My parents took urgent leave and accompanied me. I was feeling so bad tat I didnt give a thought for my parents. My mum sobbed as she saw my condition and chided me for being silly. I had to swallow a bottle(as big as a carton of HL milk) full of charcoaldote(duno how to spell). It taste like fine sand tat u can find from the beach.

elindra SG

Wah your love life is more of a soap opera then mine Shocked

Ayla SG

I guess you never wanted to commit suicide… you just wanted to get away from the misery and stop thinking about everything at that moment…

kiekie SG

I was hospitalised for a week until the 3rd day when my term starts, tat was my last semester in poly. It was so frustrating to spent the New Year in hospital, but he did visited me in the afternoon. I guessed he was feeling sorry tat i got myself into this state. I was realy naive and selfish.. I only care for myself in the past, and nv really care for my parents. Now, whenever I did sth wrong, I wud feel tat wo dui bu qi ta men. I promised my mum tat I wud nv do anyth to hurt myself again.

During tat time, he came to visit me, as my DAD informed him. He was sry and even admitted to the police officer tat he was my bf. From 50kg, I dropped to 44kg, cuz I dun have appetite. His sis visited me too. I remembered She slept on the bed wif me for a while tat nite. Then a nurse walked into the ward and to attend to the other patients. Suddenly the nurse turned around and walked towards me. She laughed, u noe why? Cuz she tot she saw a ghost sleeping beside me!! Tat was realy a joke for us. Her sis bought me a hamper of bird nest and a big Ty bear. she blamed her bro for being heartless..watever. and called him a stupid carrot.

My buddies wanted to confront him abt our r/s, y we got into dis stage..but I pleaded wif them as I dun want to make things worse.

I dun want them to blame him cuz I knew I was the one whos in the wrong. I m the one who had caused all these unhappiness to occur. I make him feel inferior abt himself by passing rude remarks like eh u r realy a dumb dumb, u nv use ur brain to do arh? or y u do it dis way, u shd do it another way, wah lau, so dai and some more I fogot liao.

In the hospital I asked him isit because he fell for another girl, the XH? He says no. I pleaded him for another chance, telling him tat I will change. Even my young sis told him tat wo jie jie hai yi wei ni shi ta zhui hou yi ge nan peng you, zhe me zhi dao nib u shi, wo jie jie hen nan guo. He was the one who told me wat my sis said. I dun hate him for ditching me, I think dis is my retribution.

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