I'm a guy yearning for a ger's love. I'm very lost. I fell in
love with my female best friend 2mth ago before I embark for 4years
of undergraduate study abroad. Over a year, both of us has grown
very emotionally attached to each other. We confided with each
other everything, and even petted and had sex. In fact, she
admitted that it was quite impossible to live a life without
me.
She accepted me as her bf for two weeks before my departure, partly
because she dont want to regret in her life for making a wrong pass
at me. we broke up just before i left. During that brief two weeks,
she still find it awkward to even hold my hand or vice versa, but
we had no problem frenching. I asked her why she find it so
awkward. She says she's not sure if she loves me, but she knows
that she needs me in almost every aspect of her life. She ask me to
give her more time to think thru, if she actually loves me. She
tells me she's very confused yet always so glad to talk and see me.
She's not sure if this is love. She needed more time to think thru,
as she's in the midst of her A LEVELS now. Sigh.. to me, if u
realise that u finally found a person that u cant afford to spend
your life without, it must be that u love her. Sometimes I wonder
if it's my hot temper that always stop her from totally accepting
me. She asked me to wait for her answer till next valentine's day,
after A levels. I wasnt convinced as it could be a convenient mean
to reject me by sending an sms after I'm gone from Singapore. I
told her I will believe if she actually strip in public. She
refused to strip cuz it involves her dignity. I told her I wont
believe her at all. Told her to "get out of my life!". She then
actually strip which I stop in time. I only wanted to see how true
her words mean, not her stripping. She still sends me away at the
airport although i m suppose to check in at 4am and her class
starts at 8am.
When I finally call her 4days after touching down, she told me she
cried for 2 successive days, and ask me to call her 10min everyday.
Her actions tell me that she loves me but she's too confused to
recognise it.
My heart is aching cuz the deadline (feb14) is 4mth away (freaking
long). what to do?
