When you are afraid
and fearful in love, the immediate natural reaction is to wall up
yourself and place sentry at every corner of your emotions. After
you walled yourself, you begin to realise that something is not
right; then your sentry relax. One fine day, something casually
knock against the wall you conjured and all sentry quickly goes
back into action and you build a second layer wall to protect
further.
In the end, you discover that you have less and less space within
your emotional area and you experience a choking effect. 
***
TO LOVE is natural.
CloUdiSm Remix III state and acknowledge: Love brings up
everything unlike itself. In simple, it means that love
brings up everything - all the good, bad and ugly into surface. You
can't love love's positive aspect because your deemed the seemingly
negative traits as unloving. The truth is: its a whole package. You
cannot reject some portion of the package because you didn't like
it. If you force your way, it become more expensive instead.
When we buy value meals in Burger King, we cannot remove the fries
component just because we didn't like it. If we buy the burgers and
drinks separately, after careful calculation, in fact, you are
paying much more. The smart ones will change the fries to onion
rings instead or cheeze fries when buying at KFC... but what if you
are in Long John Silver?
Acceptance and to work around relationship is critical.
***
If you desire true
companionship, learn to release yourself and open up. You cannot
seek for companionship (friends/BGR) unless you decide to get out
of your hut and hunt for food. Sure, you can stay in your hut
forever, but eventually, is that what you want?
Nobody will go into the hut and give you food. If you don't attempt
to open that door and walk out, nobody will make you.
Cheers
