was in similar situation, but very different from you. 
everyone is unique, no?
sometimes, i feel i lose control of my thoughts oso, but.. dunnoe,
the more i know and understand things and myself, the more confused
i become, because even though knowing what to do, is different from
doing the actual things itself. than because when it happen to
yourself right, it clouts your judgement and make things so
complicated. i try to view myself as calmly as possible, but its so
hard.. and i dun talk to others about my true problems either. so
can only work em out myself, been like dat since childhood.
its true, the chinese saying, pan guan zhe qing. its so different
when it happen to you, when compared to other people.
if you wanna try christianity you can try me out, i can intro you
to my church or cellgroup. pretty neat people we have there, kids
to youths to adult groups oso got, even if u dun feel like sharing
problems in person, its good to know what God can offer, can offer
some insights that you never thought of before, for starters.
