wuming:
i think progress thru dissatisfaction is something which applies to
areas like your financial situation or personal success. i don'
think it can apply to your emotional side.. just because you have
the drive to improve it doesn't mean you'll be successful...can
you?
silyme:
why? i'm not sure if i've got the complete answer.. i do know that
i'm not feeling any sense of fulfillment, achievement, success and
maybe therefore, happiness. But on the other hand, i guess the past
year has been pretty lousy. I'm feeling this lack of companionship.
it doesn't stop at being single but extends to platonic
relationships as well. I guess my friends have all been busy and
after the JC phase, they've all got their own lives to lead either
in skools or whilst serving NS. likewise, though i've got really
crazy people back in camp to waste our youth away(haha) i just
can't connect with them the same way i do with friends i've found
out of the army circle. On top of that, i guess the lack of new
people in my life contributes to that... thanx to the army( i know
i shouldn be blaming it..) my social circle has narrowed to the
size of a fifty cent coin. and that's pretty big already..
haha
Magnus:
I was previously happy...when i was with HER. i dun deny it.. but
things turned bad and i can never attain that level of happiness
with her again. not that i wish to anyway. other then that, i dun
recall having tasted a carrot as juicy. i'm hoping there's a bigger
redder and more tasty one (i dun just refer to girls, i'm referring
to happiness in general)
am i still searching for it? i dunno. i've denounced happiness
before yet i still crave it. so i guess that i'm still searchin for
it but in a more dormant manner.
Devil:
yeesh... i really dun like vege... and the alternative to
happiness...fulfillment.. hmm
doesn't happiness often tag along? or they go hand in hand? or they
even have a menge trios with success? i guess i will feel happy
when i'm fulfilled.. and i'll be fulfilled when i attain success...
but till then... since i have no success... therefore no
fulfillment... am i entitled to feel unhappy?
even happiness derived from fulfillment is temporary. i think i'm
searching for happiness of the contentment type. to be contented
with life. i dun need fulfillment... i want contentment.
but i dun forsee myself ever achieving contentment with life..
therefore i'm striving for fufillment...as mentioned in
one of my earlier posts... haha devil.. u helped me summarise what
my take on life is at the moment.. thanx...(its in bold u
dimwit)
