Met a guy about 10 years older then me and fell crazily in love
with him. He is a foreigner, expat, married and my boss. I know
it's all wrong but I really can't help feeling so much for him that
I can almost convince myself that I will die without him.
Now, if you think that this is a typical SPG relationship or a
materailstic bimbo's story then I must say you thought wrongly. For
one, I'm not in for the money, 'coz I've more then enough monetary
means to ensure my own survival without even working and the fact
that he is a foreigner doesn't do much for me. I've grown up in a
foreign environment and been independent all my life till now. He
is the first guy I fell in love with but not my only love. My ex is
a girl but that is another story. I shall just focus my story on my
current life
I live alone here in sg and have just started working about 2mths.
Him being my boss, works in the same office as I am and we meet
each other at work also everyday. Things were really very platonic
initially, with him ensuring that I fitted in really well in the
office, ensuring that I know my job scope, etc. He just came across
to me as a really wonderful boss. He has no airs about him and he
was just really sweet. However, things started to get a bit
different a few weeks later especially when I'm working directly
with him for the project. As the company was working on the final
stages of a huge project, there were many late nights and burnt
weekends spent in the office. As I was his "personal" assistant
then we spent many hours at work together and small chats soon
became lengthy conversations. We hitted off really well and like
me, he is also alone in sg, (his wife is in states) and we shared
many comman interest. Things started to get really comfortable and
when the project was finally completed a month ago, we had already
made plans to go on weekend diving trips, golfing sessions etc
together once everything was completed. I must admit, I was already
attracted to him by then because he was just so different from
other guys i've met and we got along really well. I was fully aware
that he is married but i thought that him being married and all
would only mean that we would not bring our "friendship" to the
next level and I never expected him to develope any form of
attraction towards me. I must make it clear that I never thought or
hope that things will work out, i was juts secretly admiring him. I
mean who won't, he oozes charisma, he is gentlemanly and almost
everything a girl would ask for .... but perhaps forbidden fruit
always test the best ?
Anyway to cut the long story short, one thing just lead to another
and about 10 dinner/lunch dates and 2 weekends together, we ended
what we are today. A couple. Issues like past hurts, relationship,
virginity etc were brought up and many tears, fights and begging
for forgiveness occurred on my part for events or issues that we
couldn't accept or agree upon, were brought up last week. But it
was also through the events that happened last week that i've
realised that I've allowed myself to sink so deeply into this
relationship that i can no longer pull myself out from it when need
comes. I felt that I've totally lost myself in this pass month for
someone whom I dun know would be willing to spend his entire life
with me. He is married and I'm the other woman, he claims that he
does not love his wife and I'm the best thing that had ever happen
to him. His marriage was kinda "forced". I feel used, confuse and
totally wreck, but I'm so addicated to him. With him i feel love, i
do not feel like i'm alone in this world since my family is kinda
non existance.
I just needed an outlet to voice my fasturations......... please
dun judge me.
