Hi pal,
I am having the same situation. But worse..heres my
experience:
I am 25 years old..and I got to know my wife (26 years old) when I
was 17. She was my 1st gf and whom I gave my heart to. I used to
have lots of friends then..but after starting a relationship with
her..I realized that I have neglected them and till date, only a
few still stood by me. She was the perfect gf..taking care of all
my needs and standing by me even in difficult situations. When I
was 20, we got married and 1.5 years later, we had our 1st child.
She was someone whom I felt I can be with for the rest of my
life..
At age 22, I decided to pursue my Degree in the UK. I brought along
my wife and child. It was shocking in a totally different
environment
.but wife ensured that I adapt it well. She took total
control of the household and kid
went to market daily in the cold
weather (esp winter)
just to ensure that I can fully concentrate on
my studies. She would often stay up late (4am+) to cook supper for
me when I was burning my midnight oil. There are millions of things
that she had sacrificed for me..but it cant be listed out in
words..Maybe I was starting to take it for granted..Whenever Im
stressed, I would lose my temper with her
and even my beloved
child...and sometimes said really horrible things which hurt her
immensely..But I dare to say that after each time, I would feel a
strong sense of guilt and immense pain..my love for her has never
wane a single bit all these years..its just that I cant control
my temper and couldnt express myself..and thus leading to her
thinking I do not love her. When I graduated, our second child was
born last year. However, our quarrels never stopped, and I did not
realise that I have neglected my children and pushed a lot of
things to her.
Many factors contributed to our waning marriage life: my temper,
her relationship with my parents, financial, her stress of taking
care of so many issues and kids etc..I never realized that
I was
the complete beast and idiot..Early last month (Oct), we had the
most heated quarrel yet
.I thought it was routine
only when one
Monday morning..I realized that my wife and kids are gone. I called
them countless times..but she did not pickup. It was then I
realized that I have lost them
.my whole world collapsed.. I went
to see her..lost my dignity...crying (like a crybaby) and even
knelt in front of her, her family and neighbours
but she just gave
me a cold laugh...each day, I waited for her..hours..but when I met
her, she just told me to [email protected]# off
.then comes the knock out
blow
she told me that she had planned one week in advance on how to
leave with the kids without me realizing it
she said she acted
normally for the whole week so as not to arouse my suspicions
each
word seems to punch a nail into my bleeding heart
How did she
become like this? I asked myself
.then I realized for the last
time
it was ME..who turned her into this..
These days, I couldnt concentrate on work
life is like living
hell..saw couples with kids..as I longed to hold my beloved kids
once more..I would have contemplated suicide if not for the fact
that Im my parents only child..My parents and friend told me to
forget her and concentrate on career and maybe will find another
one
but I snapped back and said: She is not my gf! They are my wife
and kids!! 8 YEARS!! How can they be substituted!! I tried my very
best to concentrate on career and other things
but till now, its
in vain..Life is really meaningless now..
To All: Please..please cherish all your loved ones while you still
can..Dont engage in self-pity like me
.only when u lost
them..
