honestly given how alot of ppl treat me these
days,i find that i am very disappointed in life.it becomes like it
doesnt matter if i just die or not.because there isnt much things
there is in life that i miss or something or someone i like that i
cant bear to leave loh.there is no friendship that i cherish and
treasure at all.
How can you tell for sure? How old are you now? Are you a fortune
teller? Why don't you help me tell my future for a change? Or....
Maybe let me tell you something...? With every minute you spend in
this world you would probably be learning new experiences every now
and then... Why give up on everything after you've invested so
much? Where are your fruits..? You're probably planning to leave
your plantation after seeding your plants and watering them for
years...?
what's with the
fortune teller ? 
family.u probably know frm my previous
thread. so there is no need for me to elaborate.
Yes. So this is how you see them and believe them to
be?
of cos ? yr second
part it's hello? that is what i see ?
classmates.i started a thread abt this
sometime ago.anyway i felt that many of them didnt treat me well
and i wasnt close to them at all.
If you're not close to them why would you expect them to treat you
well? Do you go around giving money and financial assistance to
strangers you don't know on the streets...?
it's what loh.i
attempted to be nice to them and said hi when i saw them loh.i did
nothing to upset them loh,like why would i do so ? dont tell me abt
subconsciously i did it ,ok?
then dont u donate money to beggars or to charities ?
then there were some changes, small but at
least better than nothing.maybe i was oversensitive to some of the
words to them or something.maybe it's sheer bad luck that i couldnt
click with them at all.i dunno whether do you call this something
sent by god to spite me of something.
Are you a Virgo?
yes. ?
there are some ppl in class that are rather
nice. but of cos,they are much closer to the rest of the class than
me lah.
Tell me why can't they be? Any reason why they should be closer to
you?
i didnt say they cant
ok ? (for the first part)
this is not a case of jealousy get it ?
i dunno
whether to go to their chalet or not since i probably wouldnt feel
easy there. never mind the money i have paid.
Yup. You probably would be uneasy if ya go. Probably because you've
already got this form of mentality drilled so deeply before you
attend it. Nobody can gurantee that it's gonna be a good turn out,
but at least it's a start? Are you a fortune-teller?
net friends.
some of them i see them,talk to me,give me attitude.
anyway i dun wanna talk abt it too much.
Then meet OTHER people... Just because you're meeting up with the
wrong group of people DOESN'T mean that everybody's like
that....
ok fine...
outside friends
i got limited friends frm classes because of the strict policy my
parents imposed on me in sec sch. end up i didnt even managed to
keep in contact with them at all/ i can remember 1 guy ask me what
was my icq number. i told him i dunno what was it because my
parents restricted me frm having it anyway.
Are you still in secondary school? Do you still have strict
restrictions imposed on you? If ya do you can always try to work on
it... It's YOR LIFE, it's in your hands... Stop putting the blames
on everybody else though it's probably gonna make explaining things
to yourself MUCH SIMPLER... But it certainly ain't gonna make your
life much easier...
i did ? i am in a
poly now.yes the rules are still there. it's hello? who restricted
me first ? my sis never had this thing ok? now
she has friends frm every sch she goes to.
3mth cos. i know a small bunch of friends
that i still keep in contact with till now.learnt to take their
differences in stride anyway.
got introduced to 2 new friends thru a friend.
1 had a small crush on her and thought might wanna cont as friends
instead since she has some similar interests with me
i msg her on last fri or something.asked her when is she free for a
short chat since it has been time we last chatted.she told me to
call her on mon night.ok fine. i called. 5 times, 5 times got into
her mailbox.
So? There're always other people out there..? Just because your
favourite fishball noodles stall is closed for the day DOESN'T make
that you shouldn't be having your meal today....?
she is one of those
few ppl that i can talk to when i am feeling down loh. the rest
either give me weird answers or i am not only tells me abt his com
experiences.
i msg 2 friends.
1 said he is watching now. the other friend didnt reply.i called
her home.she was out then i msg her. didnt reply.
until i called her just now.
said " maybe my hp off?" "maybe this maybe that"
she was the 1 who suggested to watching a movie tonight. then she
denied it.
Maybe she've forgotten about it or something else? Why you can
think of so many reasons to explain things for yourself why can't
you simply create a few for others?
what do u mean? i
dont get u.
the 2nd new friend.once i msg her or talked
online.was abit upset by her attitude.
Maybe she felt the same? Frankly speaking I don't know? Maybe both
of you just don't click? If you don't work out with this person you
can always go for another? Join us at outings? Don't always go for
'one on one' where you're always upset about
people...?
she acts like nothing
has happened loh.click or not isnt the crux loh.
what one on one ?
i want to join,but go there.all age abv 20? i still under 18 loh.
pub also cannot go.next time outing then i see abt it.
so that sums up most of the ppl i
know.
How many people you know? I think by your 'rule' nobody should
survive liao... Since most babies born would be spanked on the ass
to make them cry for life and breath... If they're mentally aware
enough to think a bit, they've probably CONCLUDED that the world is
EVIL and consist of BAD people who spank them for no obvious
reason... I believe you're a SCIENCE student or sort of? And I
trust you know the 'Rule of Sampling'? Think about
it....
yes i am a science
student.rule of sampling falls under statistics which i am just
scratching it. in other words i learn it as part of maths, not a
individual stats module.
i mean dont tell me how many ppl i know loh. i dont mean to be rude
but how many ppl i know is a rather simple thing which i am able to
determine easily loh.dont tell me i am supposed to include
strangers as well ? i dont really think yr baby analogy is rather
relavant loh.
i am very disappointed in life liao.
i feel like going out.go arcade,movies.anywhere.
alone.
There's a point in my life when I've done that, and I believe that
I'm not the only one who does that? If you have to just go ahead?
There really ain't nothing wrong with that...?
ok sure.
because there wouldnt be a problem of
latecoming.mis-communication.honestly i feel like crying.this is
the first time i feel like crying after so many years. i really
cannot take it anymore.
At least you're still AWARE that something's going very wrong in
your life....?
of cos i know ?
