I have a story to share with the cyberians of this forum ...
...
How true is the sentence that was being discussed of late: "The one
you marry may not be the one you loved
"
Well, in the story, we have this stupid guy
He is just a simple
guy, having an average life. Basically, working and studying
part-time like many other S'poreans. While it seems like he should
be happy, having a good job, studying for degree and having a gf
but he isn't.
His gf had been with him for a long time, very long. Them have
known each other since, well, when she was still schooling. Anyway,
at the start of the r/s, the couple was really happy, enjoying each
another company and love. However, slowly, things start to change.
While what seems to be a nice gal, turns into a nightmare at times.
She had problem controlling her temper. As the bf, the guy really
tried to endure and counsel her. The gal seems to have a double
personality, really really nice at times, and very bad tempered at
other. Especially when pressure comes in, it is usually diverted at
the guy. For the start, the bf endured and tried to help. After a
very long time, he started to get tired. He feeling that he is
losing his life. The gf had endless quarrels with him over his
company when he is with his friends. She seems ever needing his
company and that she can't be alone herself. The stupid guy begin
to distance from his friends a little and kept the gf company, to
avoid the useless quarrels. In their talks and quarrels, to the
guy, it seems that the gf doesn't listens to him at all. He started
to get the feeling that words doesn't get to the gal, as she is a
very strong headed person who stands by her idea at all times.
Slowly, the guy stop talking
So, the problem goes on
The feeling started to get weak for the
guy
However, the guy, being stupid, stuck with her at all times.
Though he feels tired, and sometimes sad for himself, he did not
initiate a breakup. At the start of the problem, he felt that maybe
changes would come and things would get better. But it did not,
things got worst. However, while the feelings at the heart had
began to whither, the stupid guy's loyalty and sense of guilt/
responsibility remain as strong.
He feels that he is bonded by his oath to the gal, that he would
take care of her, always. Also, since they have had made love, he
felt that he should be responsible to her. This dragged on for
sometime.
While they were together all this time, the guy had remained
faithful. A few gals had passed by, but the guy did not falter. Of
course at the start, when they were still loving, his love keep him
firm. When things start to go bad, it was his sense of loyalty and
responsibility which stood up.
Times go by and the life goes on
Finally, until one day, he was
really tired, so tired that he began to give up
Things start to
change in him, he stop to be ever caring and loving to the gal
She sensed it and asked him
but he didn't tell her
It was
because the gal ever said that she would not ever loved another
He was really scared he would have caused her to lose her life
However, when the feeling is gone, it is gone. Things goes into a
monotone for the guy
work, accompany her, eat, sleep, study
There doesn't seems to be any feelings in his life anymore.
Nowadays, he would go out with his friends late at night after she
had fall asleep. He felt that perhaps there is still some life with
his friends
However, as usually, to avoid conflicts, he chose to
go out with his friends late at night
The gf had always been a
paranoid, always wanting to wait for the guy to be home before
sleeping
or keep calling him when uncontactable. If any guy
would know, this give the feeling that he cant be trusted
It is
just like when you are young and your mum doesn't let you out late
However, when the come of age (when you are older), she would
usually allows and stop to interfere with your life. The gf never
did ...
Anyway, as things fall into monotone for the guy
going out with
his friends doesn't help much. He got a lot less sleep and its
seems like the smile on his face was gone
.
However, something changed one day. A temp staff in his office
caught his attention
Unknowing his own actions, he tried to get
to know the gal
That's was when he life from monotone became
misery.
He became friend with the new gal
and he really enjoyed her
company
However, fear began to cave in
He knew he had fallen
for the gal
which to him, was a really dishearten thing. He
knows that he cant woo the gal, since he had a gf
and it is not
fair that the gal doesn't know (well, both of them). So he tried to
keep it cool
but in his heart, pain and more pain was all he
felt.
He felt that he was being bad and unfair, and he came to a
conclusion. He wants to tell the gal about his r/s
He knows
that would probably caused him to lose her forever
how would a
gal trust a guy who is wooing her while he had a gf? So, he asked
her out one day
for movies and maybe a talk afterwards ..
however, the gal wasn't free at the time and so the guy ask her out
for lunch
Anyway, the gal was free in the evening and wanted to
treat the guy dinner
They had dinner together and both had
quite some time together. The guy wanted to tell her then, but
words got stuck in his mouth. He wanted very much (very very) to
spend more time with her, go to the movies and maybe a walk later.
She would not know ... had badly he felt ... ... He didn't ask for
movies, he got afraid
afraid that he cannot let go of this gal
from then
In the past few days, he doesn't dare to call her too,
for her voice is too enchanting
Meanwhile, the r/s got worse until the couple almost broke up.
Perhaps it was guilt, loyalty, responsibility, fear or sympathy,
the guy don't know, but they didn't break up. The stupid guy just
couldn't do
Unless he knows that she would have a better life if
they break, if she can find someone who would love her more than he
ever did, he dare not mention a breakup. But the gf sensed that he
love was not as strong, or even wondering was it still there. But
how can he tell
He had decided then
he would tell the gal about himself and from
then, stop thinking about her
He knows he hasn't been fair
but anyway the gal may not liked him at the start, he would never
know this now
there were many ifs but his conclusion
he could
not woo her
Even if finally the couple were to breakup
he
wouldn't. He felt that the gal should deserve someone better than
him
To him, the gal is like the morning sun, filled with hopes and
a great life ahead, he shouldn't change that... he is not worthy
... ... Maybe he would stay single for good anyway
That's how
things are now
the guy trying to tell the gal and end his
feelings for her, while trying to stick to the gf, as long as
possible
Apologies, as I was never good at composition, for those who read
this story
Yes, most of you might think the guy is stupid
indecisive ..
whatever
That's my story and I think I should end here
