I dun suppose that u r silly or anything. Hey like I said u have
your emotions involved in the matter. It can just be a heart made
out of bus ticket that he gave you just for the fun of it, it will
still be a treasure to you. It's different when it's object of
sentimental value. For instance, clay is just a lump of mud, but
hey pple are seeing it the other way. It's mud suitable things for
more pple to appreciate. So wat it's a piece of mud, some pple do
see the value in it. And now the person is you.
It's how you view it, and I dun think you are silly to keep these
things. Think abt it. Only u urself know how much they are worth.
Only urself can tell whether they are fit for the safe or for the
bin, coz these were once your treasures, and as to whether it will
be in the future depends on u. Give you another example, I
participated in a race, and you got 3rd, but it can feel that like
it's you r the champion. Just like one of the runners who was
interviewed in the Olympics in Atlanta. Forgot her name though, she
came in last for the race, u can see her smile just as brilliantly
or even happier than the champion. WHY u may ask if you have not
seen the report. Becoz she broke her own record, and to her that is
achievement. Just saying here is from the way u look at things. u
have your own style and way of doing things, so just do it. need
not follow wat the crowd is doing.
As you asked for my personal first love, I can say that when she
first broke up wif me I was totally lost. Moreover I was still a
very young teenage. There was this guy who was rather rich, he
always have at least $100/- in his wallet. Mine is at most $15/-
and by the end of the week it's empty. She felt so pampered when
she's wif him, but not me. She told me that I do provide emotional
security, but that too was much won over by him. I think memories
put her in a tough spot. Until one day I told her, it's either him
or me.
In my heart, I remember clearly the words she once said, she will
love me forever. The vows that we made to stay together eternally.
All these gave me hope and trust that she will pick me. But she
chose the other guy instead.
I told myself that at least I have an answer and need to see her go
out wif another guy during the week ends. And that was it, though
we patched back after a while and the following yr, it was my turn
to make a wrong move on her. Yet it was still maintained till we
went to seperate JCs. She was in the extreme north and I was in the
far west, so we sort of end it since we couldn't meet and studies
were pushing us. We are still good friends now though. and we still
keep in contact and I still kept all the letters, photos and stuff
she gave me...
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