hi Inzaghi,
it would seem that my determination is just aint strong enough,
barely a few hours and here im again. one part of me hopes that
the Chit Chat forum takes just long enough to resume working status
so that by the time it does, it doesnt matter to me anymore, on
the hand, the other part of me misses it although i must say, not
as much as before though. but then again, it could be due to the
depressing day ive had and will have for a few more days.
and helloooooo, since when am i always kanna banned? only kanna
censured once and i stopped flirting there with pacman because i
know he will abide by the rules and not flirt with me, so why make
myself lose face there? cannot flirt there, i flirt in here lor
.
alamak, Inzaghi you young, young only, 28 years old max, can get
heart attack ah, just reading the flirting posts? er, then how do
you cope with the excitement of the actual handy panky? ! er, then i shall make you people more jealous then
although i think in this forum, not a lot of people will read it
but what the heck?!
with regards to faroutnews.com, you dont need to register, you
just type your name and post, so anybody can impersonate anybody
there. .
and with regards to the Utopia forum, just click on Hop To: and
choose Utopia from the Category: Free Forums, but nobody posts
there either, although Revey did post there last night, i havent
seen sparkle though.
so, heres to make people puke and jealous again 
:
hi pacman
the sky in Singapore yesterday was still clear and bright, not
cloudy at all unfortunately yesterday was a
particularly busy and distressing day, especially around noon when
the news came, man i was so sad and depressed, am still depressed.
reached home around 4 pm, didnt notice the sky at all although i
knew that it was a sunny day, had a short nap to sleep off the sad
mood, felt a little better when i woke up, felt even better after a
short email to a friend, yeah much better and off i go again. the
Singapore sky around 6 pm was beautiful again because i was happy
again, one side of it was clear and blue and the other was a little
cloudy, just like how im feeling, optimistic and pessimistic at
the same time. *sighs* this is going to be a long week, not because
of the concessions ive to make but the pain and concern i know
ill feel, i feel ive failed in my duty.
saw three, yes three low flying airplanes in the sky too on my way
to Yishun, i wonder if theyre the same plane? and the half moon
was visible too, yeah at 6 pm, seeing the sky and thinking of you
made my carelessness easier to bear. am i feeling guilty? a little
but ill rationalize it away soon, i hope ill remember this lesson
for life.
as i looked out of the window this evening from where i was, i saw
this huge, mature rain tree, the leaves were folded by then, the
sky was blocked by the tree and the flats, shall i think of you in
future when i see rain trees too? er, but then, how would i be able
to concentrate and work? missed the sunset today because i was in
the wrong direction, but tomorrow when i look out of the window,
therell be no flats to block my view and it will be spectacular,
it always is when i remember to look up and look out of the window.
er, may i think of you then? 
at 7.45 pm tonight, the Singapore sky was still blue, it was
getting darker, by then the glorious sunset has passed but stars
came out to cheer me, its really hard to see bright twinkling
stars and i counted 5, mind you, i wear glasses and its good
enough that i can spot them.
i came across an eye chart today, tried reading the words without
my glasses, cant read beyond the 3rd row from 3 to 5 ft away, oh
man, i needed to stand within 1 ft of the eye chart to read the
very last line, while the 70 plus year old woman who was with me
rattled off the numerals on the very last line of the eye chart
standing at 5 ft away, it was the only fun incident for me
today.
10.00 pm on the way home, thinking of what to write to you, still
feeling happy and yet feeling sad. 10.20 pm to now, totally sad,
tomorrow is another long day, i hope ive happy news. when i stare
out of the window tomorrow, overlooking town, i hope nothing blocks
my view and if possible, to remember to think of you and be able to
smile.
if things does not improve and my mood does not improve, this would
be my last flirting post to you, it doesnt mean i dont think of
you, just that the mood for flirting is not there, i hope everybody
recovers and then pacman baby, ill be chasing you passionately
across the forums again, just like old times. take care and God
bless.
yours,
colette