Time really gave me a torture~~ and everyday I seemed to lead a
lifeless life~ How I pinned for a call from you every day and
night~~ and how much I wish to have your hug when I saw you~~I
started to get depression, alcohol is no longer a 'solution' for me
not only mentally tortured myself but also physically I would do
so~~
There were times I would start out crying with no reasons~~ times
when I talked to myself~~ and would frustrate all my anger on my
hand~~
I did not know why I did that... but there's not way i could help
it~~
There's a time when I fainted after arguing with you~~ My family
had a dispute that day and i had thought of calling you to tell you
how sad I was~~ i never expected you actually f**k me off~~ and
hung up my call~~ I cried and I fainted~~ my parents brought me to
the clinic~~ and the doctor was so shocked that and saw the wounds
on my hand and even warned me that I might die of hypertension~~ if
I can't control my emotions correctly~~
Still you hacked care~~ I was in total devastation~~ I knew I
should bear no hope in our relationship~~ at least I'm glad that
you finally did this to lessen my pain~~
You started to hide your mobile from me~~ I knew something was
wrong~~ but yet you were still careless and let me get hold of your
handphone~~ I saw Mel's messages~~ and yes I got suspicious this
time~~ but I remained silent~~
Finally, you showed your true colours to me~~ As usual~~ you went
to Mel's house~~ and from your buddies, they had tried calling you
and you were asleep~~in Mel's house~~
I tried to calm myself down~~
I bet you regretted for giving me your email password and I got
thru your mail and saw your cousin, Bel's email on how you planned
to deceive me and betrayed me, how you were going to two-timer Mel
and me~~ i'm sad for Mel cos she doesn't even know my existence~~~
cos you had told her you were single~~~
I called you~~ and asked you where you were~~ You sound sleepy~~
and I heard Mel's voice too~~ You shouted very loudly and even
scolded me to mind my own business~~~.. You made me given up all
hope~~ and I finally decide to leave you for good~~~
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Do you remember how you tried to hold me back with all your
tears?~~ Boy~~ it's too late~~ cos you have made my love for you
turned into hatred~~
all i want to say now is thank you for letting me feel what it
means to love~~~ not every story would have a happy ending~~~ at
least i know mine would definitely never have one
but I would never forget this relationship~~~ i still occassionally
get into a daze~~~thinking about the happier times we had
together... i know, i'd never be able to feel this way about anyone
else... i cannot explain why.. after all the hurt and pain you've
caused me..
The End
