you guys sure my case will only be within SAF? but singapore so
small...everyone knows everyone somehow.
it is a personal problem. i have a weak mind. think too much,
and getting worried alot.
Camp life, my camp has no life. i donno what i doing everyday,
and i dont understand why so many before me can do it, so many
after me can do it, just that particular me who cant do it.
maybe it is my character, my personality, me. i guess i am the
root of all my problems, and to get rid of the problems, i need to
get rid of the root... me.
i donno, just very lost and confused now.suicidal is
bad, surviving an attempted suicide will make things a
lot worse.
even u go outside work after ORD, medical condition is
self-declare on any
job application forms whether it is public
civil service / private company.