I am from Mohawk company whuch just poced this tuesday .
but i went through BMT with my sergeant closing one eye .
Also , I feel scared doing things alone .
even mop floor , area cleaning i also scared . I have to ask my
frenz if i am doing correctly .
then i 7 weeks still cant march . I have difficulty cordinating . I
march like a zoombie . and my back posture all wrong .
even at cookhouse i hold my fork and knief abit wrong .
first few days , i carry the tray at cookhouse , my hands trembling
.
I also cant socialise well , I am still abit scared of ppl .
I never greet any sergent loudly . I cant shout and sing army songs
.
I scared I go unit will get scold .
my field camp also borderline pass . ( basically , i excused arms
so most IFC i dun have to do , except camou )
arms drill i also excused , so i only attend one drills lesson but
i got all the commands wrong . All the rest nid arms .
the master parrade infront of bmtc 1 , i also do wronly but i at
middle row so not so obvious .
until now i still scared to stomp my feet .
leopard crawl i also never do it properly .
range i excused .
then i am so blur until my SOG knief , torchlight , field pack
items all missing .
if i uppes , should i buy back my SOG knief ? i think need . where
can buy ?
my pes temp for 6 months .
I also have to constantly play with my no 4 collar , watch and pull
my shirt to reduce anxiety .
unit seems dangerous for me .
I scared i go cut myself .
I scared I end up in DB .
