i can empathise with you.
that was what i felt when i was first enlisted in 1996 as a clerk,
while all my friends in my cohort went for BMT. u can imagine how
awkward i felt, and how out of place i was when i went out with
them and didnt understand a single thing they were talking
about.
but i got by, doing what i was supposed to do, adapting, accepting,
and learning. the people there were nice to me and it helped. in
the end, my short clerical stint was one memorable period of my ns
life.
you really have to learn to accept the situation as it is, and make
the best of it. unless there are plausible chances, there is really
no point fretting about something that is beyond your control. dont
think you want to feel miserable for the rest of your ns
right?
and once you get by with that, with any other problems with your
work, your colleauges, etc, you should seek the proper assistance,
and such help should be rendered to you.
not everyone can chiong sua, and what you are doing is equally
important. do not let someone else belittle the importance of the
support corp. without it, the pay, the logistics, etc, will not be
around when needed. even napolean understood the importance of
that.
but most importantly, do not belittle yourself. life is never
perfect. it is how we respond and adapt, and make the best out of
the given situation that defines our life.
