my mom and i dont get one thing . the first day we go to a
particular buddhism centre.
we had a talk with the teacher.
my mom disclosed my mental history and even being downpesed to
PES F before coming to NS. it's not my mom din disclose.
and the teacher could tell i am quite inferior and worried and
yet she recommened reading books from dharma centre.
Then at night i got illusion of hell and sucidal thoughts and
impulses. dreams of animal and hell dreams.
and she asked me chant i will remember i am pushed down from
stairs , beaten up in army camp , dropping into cesspit in field
camp. like that will feel sad or not.
now i felt unwell.
i decided to turn back to my original faith.
no insult meant on buddhism just speaking the
truth. buddhism centre emphasizes alot on karma
also. the tone got up when talking abt karma .
then like this i go church play better right gt frenz gt games
gt nice air con . friendly ppl.
all i have said is based on facts and
truth. no offense taken but dharma centre should
take a more careful stance on mental patients.
everyone got religious
freedom.
and noone at buddhism centre asked me if i accept karma theory
and let me guiyi. I tot no need one. they asked me how i feel.
first few visits i din read books i felt OK .
so i told them i guiyi. subsequent visits, i flipped a few pages
and unfortunatley gt karma stuff then i have sucidals thoughts and
impulses. they told me to guiyi to jie
yuan.
i have sucidal thoughts and impulses after i guiyi and read
books.