Lately, I look around at the married / attached folks in my
life, and pray to God that He hasn't forgotten about me! 
Kinda impossible to
believe leh, since I 'talk' and 'grumble' and 'whine' to him so
much! 
Or maybe, like that old song goes, 'Stupid Cupid'! Maybe, Cupid
needs new prescription specs so he can aim his arrows and stop
missing the darn target!
Y'know, I miss the giving and the taking involved in a close and
intimate relationship. I miss not living my life just for myself
but for someone else as well. It's so lovely to go to work, and no
matter how busy you are, no matter how shitty your day turns out to
be, you have an evening date with your special guy to look forward
to. 
I also miss knowing that someone out there cares deeply for me and
that we can share a meal together after a long day at work, and
take a walk together or cuddle together afterwards, and tell each
other about our day. I miss having someone being involved in my
life, having someone listen to me with interest as I talk, not
having dismissive words like, 'You think too much' / 'You are too
sensitive', etc thrown my way when I ventilate.
There's no one to talk to these days. 
I have so much to say,
but it's all constipated inside!
I also miss being involved in someone's life - knowing what he's
doing now, what he likes, what we're going to eat together later,
what his plans are, etc...
Sometimes, I feel that I've been trudging through the desert for a
very long time already. My soul feels parched but yet, I do not
wish to be tempted by just a mirage - I want a real oasis!
Guess I can only hope and continue to pray quietly that the day
will come when I'm paired up with a special guy again, and this
time, let it be for better or for worse.
Amen.
