no more heartache le... coz i wanna WOO my guy back !!!!
the man I love so much, since he is never gotta be faithful and
fair to anyone, not even mi.... all men are lidat... hear mi
stereotyping them now coz it've happened to all the men I've met in
my whole lifetym, I shouldnt be expecting him to be faithful (i've
experienced it though...)
Since non of his faithfulness exist, I should not MAKE BELIEVE that
he will be, trying so hard to make myself believe too... and when
all else fails, I kept telling people of all my sadness and getting
all over again in emotional wreck like a spoilt brat (but not oni
spoilt brat complains, many of us do too)... so, in other words, I
have to learn to enjoy the unfaithfulness he did and if I cant
accept I cant blame anyone for it... not even him...
U may think that I am too stupid or devoted to think this way...
but eventually, even if not him, the rest of the men out there are
going to be unfaithful too... so why not choose someone I love and
accept the unfaithfulness dan to choose a person I dun like???
Worse thing is, if anyone demands faithfulness or fairness from
their partners, another party tries very hard to be (or make
believe that they tried but is all lies) and fail in the end
(exposed??), both are gotta get hurtfully painful and miserable for
that !!
Dats life... is full of shit.. nothing can help except change our
mindset...
The truth out there is, as long I learn to accept the negative
things in life, such as loneliness, unfaithfulness, unfairness,
cruelty, I will live with it and not get hurt so much anymore...
I'm forced to understand and learning to deal with it by enjoying
all of these things... In fact, its all these that makes life so
spectacular, yet so miserable... u can choose to believe it as
spectacular or miserable... juz like appreciating that roses have
thorns or thorns have roses...
My tears these few days have made up a big swimming pool and I
really cry so much that I think my tears might all juz dry up and
no more left... but dats not true... Tears never dry until u made
it so...
So I am back to woo the man i love again but with a different
mindset of this entire thingy... I really love him though... juz
wanna shower him with a little love every now and then... and when
I leave singapore one day, I'll b happy with all the memories
then... because, I'm truly devoted to him !! I should start enjoy
loving him all alone and not to complain like a woman who mean to
expect.. yeah, dats the word, EXPECTATION ??!
Ooh yeah, and I want to take alot of pictures of the things we do
together so that I can have a whole album of memories when I gotta
go Taiwan... Isnt that sweet?? (dont say its stupid even if u think
it is!!)
hee hee... i'm hopping and skipping in delight all over again...
hahar !! women are strange creatures too, coz after writing two ful
pages of 'lost love quotes' dan decide a different mindset to treat
her wounds...
