I have a really close girl friend of more than 12 years I am
still crazy about.
I was in love with her since day one. We like the same music, read
the same authors and we both love cats. The minute we met we were
like soul mates. And we can talk for hours about all kinds of
things or just sit quietly reading without saying a word but still
feel comfortable.
She's gorgeous, intelligent, but tomboyish and eccentric.
Since I met her we each must've gone through about 5 different
relationships with other partners.
I've told her how crazy I was about her many times but she always
skip over the whole subject like it never happened.
It got very awkward many times but she still accepted me as a close
friend after I got over my broken heart and smashed ego. As if
nothing happened.
She would just go: "Oh, you've gotten over it already? Let's go
shopping!"
I'm still very much in love with her today and we're both still
unmarried. I now have yet another gf and she has just broken off
with boyfriend no. 5, 6 or 7 - I lost count.
We've been on holidays together just the 2 of us or with other
friends. Slept together in the same hotel room etc but we never
even once held hands! It's torture!
I'm now 38 coming 39 and she must be 35, and I still feel like a
teenager every time I see her.
Do I regret that I've never aggressively pursued her? Yes and
no.
Yes, because, she don't know what she's missing.
No because, I am very glad that though her many boyfriends have
come and gone, our friendship is still as deep as ever. Had I
become her bf our relationship might last only a short time and
then be finished forever.
And our time together has given me lots of sweet memories to last
me a lifetime.
But as fate would have it, we now live in different countries
thousands of miles apart. We've both left Singapore to pursue our
very different career paths.
We still make plans to go on holidays together but it is getting
harder with a busy workload and new relationships etc.
And if ever we live in the same country again one day - hey, who
knows?
